u/Plastic-Bumblebee629

I’m someone who really struggles with OCD and one of my biggest fears is getting sexually assaulted because I know how much I’d spiral. Growing up when I would accidentally bump into someone, or someone’s hand would accidentally land somewhere it wasn’t supposed to I always found myself spiralling, crying, feeling disgusted and wouldn’t leave my room for an entire day.

When I was younger my dad and I are were in the laundry room and as he was passing by me, I could feel something grazing behind me on my butt. He had a towel draped around his waist. That made me feel so disgusted for an entire month, I couldn’t be near him and I felt so odd. When I told my mom about it she told me not to worry and that he was my dad. I know he didn’t mean to do it on purpose.

Today I was in the car with him and he saw a cop so I told him to put his phone away. He put it on my seat beside my thigh. I thought to myself “maybe I should move the phone and put it in the center console or something so when he goes to grab it again he won’t accidentally bump his hand on my thigh.” But I was so tired from work I forgot. After he wanted to check something on his phone so he reached over to grab it and all I remember is his fingers kind of grabbing my under thigh area closer to my butt. I made an unpleasant noise and covered my thigh area. I know it was probably an accident but I feel so disgusting and wish I would’ve listened to my thoughts when I thought about moving it. That part of my thigh feels tingly and I washed it ten times in the shower but I still feel so violated.

There’s so many other moments with strangers and family members that happened and every single time I feel like this. This mostly happens with men.

I guess I just need some reassurance :(

My sister is ruining my mental health. Shes 4 years older than me. Growing up she was always really rude, fought with our parents and was seen as short tempered. I know she feels like a glass child but I’m tired of excusing her behaviour.

Growing up she was always really mean to me and I’m not talking sibling mean, she would make harsh comments about my body, would always scream at me and would make me look so terrible to our parents if she was in the mood. Around the time when I was 16, I started to realize that our arguing wasn’t something that we were going to outgrow because of how our relationship was. She would always make rude comments and when I reacted she would call me sensitive or say that I’m overreacting or brush it off by saying that she’s being honest. The way she spoke just had such a weird tone to it. One time she called me anorexic because of how little I weighed and when I got upset she turned it around on me because I was overreacting.

She always has something bad to say about my other sister or our parents and blames everyone around her. It’s almost as if she thinks something is wrong with everyone else and she’s always correcting it. She always confuses me because despite being so rude to me she’s always trying to get close to me. She’ll come into my room and ask me to go out with her and when I say no because I know the trip would be uncomfortable she storms off angry creating more tension. She’s been asking to go on vacation for years because she doesn’t want to go with her friends and everytime I make up an excuse but truthfully I can’t imagine spending time with her alone. She’s scary.

She’s been neglecting our dog and every time I bring it up she gets angry. She lives in a filthy room, allows the dog to eat random stuff and when she can’t get the dog to listen she comes running to tell me and expects me to do smth about it even if she knows what was gonna happen anyway. And if I don’t jump up and leave to help her with the dog she gets really angry. Everytime she ruins something my parents feel bad and say that maybe she’s depressed. As much as I understand and empathize I’m just so over it and don’t wanna be close with her anymore. But she’s always holding on, trying to hang out, be close or acting like we’re besties.

When she does something terrible and I’m not really talking to her the next day she’s like “why do you hold grudges.” She’s really unaware of her actions. She thinks she’s better than everyone else and she talks to me like I don’t know anything. She’s 23 and has no job and is living off of our parents money to pay off for her masters degree because she keeps doing more schooling hoping to know what she’ll want. She’s draining my parents financially and now I have to work 2 jobs to help my parents pay off my school bills because she’s weighing such a huge financial burden on them. I don’t know if I’m crazy but I think she’s not right in the head.

My sister who is 23 years old is ruining my mental health. Shes 4 years older than me. Growing up she was always really rude, fought with our parents and was seen as short tempered. She is the middle child so I know she feels like a glass child but I’m tired of excusing her behaviour. Growing up she was always really mean to me and I’m not talking sibling mean, she would make harsh comments about my body, would always scream at me and would make me look so terrible to our parents if she was in the mood. Around the time when I was 16, I started to realize that our arguing wasn’t something that we were going to outgrow because of how our relationship was. She would always make rude comments and when I reacted she would call me sensitive or say that I’m overreacting or brush it off by saying that she’s being honest. The way she spoke just had such a weird tone to it. She always has something bad to say about my other sister or our parents and blames everyone around her. It’s almost as if she thinks something is wrong with everyone else and she’s always correcting it. One time she called me anorexic because of how little I weighed and when I got upset she turned it around on me because I was overreacting. She always confuses me because despite being so rude to me she’s always trying to get close to me. She’ll come into my room and ask me to go out with her and when I say no because I know the trip would be uncomfortable she storms off angry creating more tension. She’s been asking to go on vacation for years because she doesn’t want to go with her friends and everytime I make up an excuse but truthfully I can’t imagine spending time with her alone. She’s scary. She’s been neglecting our dog and every time I bring it up she gets angry. She lives in a filthy room, allows the dog to eat random stuff and when she can’t get the dog to listen she comes running to tell me and expects me to do smth about it even if she knows what was gonna happen anyway. And if I don’t jump up and leave to help her with the dog she gets really angry. Everytime she ruins something my parents feel bad and say that maybe she’s depressed. As much as I understand and empathize I’m just so over it and don’t wanna be close with her anymore. But she’s always holding on, trying to hang out, be close or acting like we’re besties. When she does something terrible and I’m not really talking to her the next day she’s like “why do you hold grudges.” She’s really unaware of her actions. She thinks she’s better than everyone else and she talks to me like I don’t know anything. She’s 23 and has no job and is living off of our parents money to pay off for her masters degree because she keeps doing more schooling hoping to know what she’ll want. She’s draining my parents financially and now I have to work 2 jobs to help my parents pay off my school bills because she’s weighing such a huge financial burden on them. I don’t know if I’m crazy but I think she’s not right in the head.