u/Potential-Horror8723

I am breaking. I honestly don’t understand how anyone can do this alone. I hate my life.
I have 3 kids ages 5-10. Two of them need me ALL THE TIME. Like I cannot leave their sight or they might freak out. The oldest is very angsty due to her dad being a shit parent and always gone. I have to give one a bath, the other one needs homework help, the other one needs attention. I literally feel like I’m being ripped in 3 directions all the time. I have no help, their dad is unemployed and when he does come around to visit he doesn’t help me out in anyway whatsoever. I make $22/hr so we’re broke too. What is even the point.

My middle kid turned 8 in March and did not get a card like usual from her step-grandma. She didn’t notice so I didn’t mention it. Now it’s May and my youngest turned 5, and she DID get a card. What should I do? I know for an absolute fact the 8 year old will be sad and jealous. She is very competitive with her younger sis, and already thinks everyone favors her. Should I just hide the card? Little one won’t notice if it’s not there either. But then I feel bad. Ugh help! (Btw the card has money in it if that changes things)