u/PotentialKnee9022

I have none to talk to abt this
I ve been in only one relationship
We (as i thought) were in love
Stupid bitch

We broke up for a stupid reason 4 months ago
He was my sweet boy he knows i ve never felt safe around ANYONE ANYONE AT ALL except him
We were planning on getting engaged in a year
He s richer than me so for his birthday khabbit masrouf chhar w chritlou behom fazet w hawelt i spoil him chway
I did everything
I supported him when he was down depressed insecure i listened and listened and cared and did so much fucking effort

Anyways for the last 4 months i ve been secretly checking his tiktok insta etc
All he did was repost some shit about how every girl he was was badder than the last
And somehow i found out he has a new girl
She s gorgeous
A lil too perfect
He s been liking her posts since april
Since his birthday
The times i thought we were deeply in love
She s blonde
He said he hated blonds lol

What did i do wrong
I couldve died for this man
He knows it
Am earased like a dream
How can i rebuild my hope in love
Am an orphan and i already struggle believing in good intentions with men
But this
My sweet boy did this ? To me
Wlh laathim teebt i dont deserve this belah help
I ll see him in uni w he ll nit give a fuck
He said he s been cheated on in the past
I kept my loyalty w my love for him w he tore my heart to pieces
Idk what to say

i saw a guy share some stuf he wrote after going through a break up and i thought i'd share a lil of mine

u 're a strong girl , kamala:

ever since i was a kid ,

summer always came with a lingering feeling of leaving , of realisation that maybe outside of all the noise tat comes with the school year

, outside my desperate attempts at making noise in my life

all i am is a feeling of longing for more

more beauty

more money

more friends

more happiness

it s the one o one daily conversation with myself at three am

about how everything could ve gone differently

about my dissapointements and my fears

i sit alone with my mind and realise am still the same fucked up 15 year old

who thought being good before leaving will have her anchored in the mind of people

like a passing ghost or a summer breeze

who knew not to be surprised

who expected the worst, not out of fear but out of experience

and when the worst came i welcomed it with open hands and teary eyes

tears of hurt and disappointment and some sort of , familarity

i look back at that girl with pride

we re grown up now we re at uni

we re responsible and we carry the weight of people

and tho we re way too far from what we wished

we re far away from where we caame from

and i like to thank her

thank yourself

for getting up every day

putting on make up

putting on a face

facing the world

forcing your body and your heart to move

u're a strong girl , kamala

i want to go back to praying i always fo back baaed hkeyet 2/3 weeks sthg happens w nekef i also get super tired physically w nkoul to baaed w kol

help

i regret letting my walls down and believing in the mystery of love i regret giving my all i regret looking past the fear of my heart i regret imagining a future and thinking that my sweet boy is different i regret thinking that love still has meaning in the eyes of men i regret being patient and loving i regret forgiving and settling for stuff i know i deserve a lot more i regret thinking that everyone shares my pure intentions i regret being hopeful not only in love but also in life it s not worth it at the end to be forgotten like u never were to be replaced and erased

hey the title says pretty much everything nheb haja behia tched long terme zone 50/60 d chnakra behom fl biblio also mnin nechei pls thank yall

am just gonna vent here with no big details

i m 19 f we grew up in a household with only girls fl aasma cz my father died when i was 11

i carried his responsibilities from a young age i had to put on masculine roles w be tough to survive w i didnt allow love into my life

this year was my first relationship i met a sweet guy we became friends w i trusted him after a looong time w i felt safe w broke my walls down

am never too close physically it s just for respect for myself w my parents wena trabbit keka but i loved him fr

this relatioship felt like being a kid again

it felt out of a movie when it was good

the problem is that many times i felt neglected w taken for granted w with no further details i decided to end things respectfully khater i beilieve li if u say u love me ur actions should show

he proceeded to befreind the girl he was talking to before me right after the break up like other girls stories w he was posting stuff that hurt me cause for me it felt real w from what I understood now he just wants to collect trophies

i cant picture trusting someone this much again or loving someone like this

i cant picture a romantic future where i take my walls down for someone else w where i get this hurt again

i know it sounds corny i really just cant do it how can u be tht in love with someone than say stuff abt them akkeka

i ll continue to study with him at uni and see him w it ll hurt all over again while he s just fooling around

this was my sweet boy this trust took way too long to be built this is the only male i felt safe with in 8 years

sos