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▲ 23 r/lnkyverse

Community Discussion :Has learning about the Black Pill destroyed your desire for romantic relationships?

Learning about the biological truth of human relationships, like the infalibility of factors out of your control (face, height, ethnicity), the transactional nature that underlies EVERYTHING, etc. has rendered me increasing disinterested in forming relationships.

I don't want a girlfriend anymore, much less a wife. I was never desired for who I originally was, and that broke me. Whether or not looksmaxxing will work out for me in the future, having to put thousands of dollars and hundreds of hours of work into becoming an acknowledged human being will result in apathy. The idea that someone loves you for who you truly are is the lube of romantic relationships.

The only desire I have left is purely sexual in nature. While I would prefer exclusivity, I don't see a difference between a prostitute and girls my age (18-22) anymore. In some ways, I even prefer the prostitute. At least they are upfront, have a basis of standards, and actually gain something from the sex apart from a primal sense of satisfaction of fucking a guy with ideal angles or whatever biological bullshit is behind chad being a chad.

So yeah, I'm kinda fucked up. But it was inevitable seeing that reality is just as fucked up too.

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u/PowerWillFreeMe — 6 hours ago
▲ 0 r/premedcanada

How would you advise me in applying to schools considering my unusual situation?

To put it simply, I have never been to High School. The last academic transcript I have is from Grade 8. I've completed a CAEC (Equivalent of a GED) and that's it when it comes to my record.

I am low-income and homeless in a youth shelter.

Despite this, I want to do premed and perhaps be a Psychiatrist or similar someday.

Right now I am trying to research the process and apply for colleges through OCAS (Ontario Colleges dot ca) but it's so damn confusing and I've never had a Guidance Counselor or teacher to tell me what any of this means.

I would appreciate some help and guidance, as the AI-infested internet is shockingly unhelpful when you want specific information.

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u/PowerWillFreeMe — 24 days ago
▲ 98 r/kitchencels

3rd week of Chadquest. I am done with women.

Women are a waste of effort. I will not invest any significant effort into them until I ascend to the point where they are grinding their ass into me like they do with the chad they met 5 minutes ago in the club.

u/PowerWillFreeMe — 26 days ago
▲ 49 r/kitchencels

I feel like I'm slowly losing my sanity.

I am a short, ugly, black man. I hate this world. I hate my life. I am preparing for college and I am full of despair. In all my years of school, I have been nothing more than trash. Bullied. Looked down upon or not even perceived as an option.

I am subhuman scum. I have tried to adapt, but I can't. I want to be chad. I want to be loved. But my disgusting face, my disgusting body, my disgusting everything ruins it. At most, I can become friends with girls, I can talk to them. But it immediately becomes clear that I am disposable. They forget about me when I'm not there. They will throw me under the bus just because they feel this way or that, or to protect an acquaintance.

I just want to die. But I can't bring myself to finish it. Why was I cursed these genes, this environment, this fate. I want to claw my skin, twist and tear myself into nothingness, but I am already nothing, and that will never change.

u/PowerWillFreeMe — 29 days ago
▲ 6 r/BoyDinnerDiaries

My life is just cycles of fear and pain.

I am 19 and I grew up in a neglectful environment. I missed out on going to High School because I moved countries and I instead worked in parents business.

Now, I am homeless with a minimum wage job, and stressing about college.

I know what I want to be - a psychiatrist. The reason why I want to be one is that I fucking hate psychiatrists. They have screwed me over countless times. I have been diagnosed with ADHD and yet I am still waiting over a year for ADHD medication. So much of life has been fucked by that and I want to burn their institutions to the ground.

But can I? I'm just some street rat with pennies to my name. I have never been to High School. My coworkers ask me what I do outside of work and I have nothing to answer with. I don't have hobbies, I am not in college yet, and my day is spent bedrotting and being full of fear of homelessness (I only have a couple of months to move out, and the average rent is more than my wage).

People my age have much more experience in all aspects of life, and much more support in terms of parents. I don't know anybody in a situation even close to mine. It has ruined me so bad I think I have a fear of failure and of success. Every time I succeed I fear what the inevitable karma balance that will push me down.

I am too scared to even apply for college.

Its so pathetic. I want to see a psychiatrist, but I fucking can't, and that just makes me hate them more, and want to become one more. Its just fucking overwhelming.

u/PowerWillFreeMe — 1 month ago