This gross but I think there is something wrong with the water here and id like to see if anyone else in Madison county is getting sick.
All 3 of my dogs started getting diarrhea, then myself.
The only common denominator is that we have all drank water from the tap. I saw that there have been quite a few boil water notices recently for several other places so i wanted to see how others in madison are feeling
I have never been diagnosed with schizophrenia or anything. Just Aspergers back when that was a thing.
Recently life has gotten *extremely* stressful for reasons i cant go into.
For the past three weeks i have had increasingly severe illusions and my brain cant seem to keep up the pace like it used to. Its hard to even type this, ive had to take off work because of how hard it is to process anything at all.
It started with seeing the stair railings wiggle. Then i started to struggle with understanding how many stairs i was seeing. Then i started to hear yells, sometimes my name, sometimes random nonsense, and when i turn to look in the direction of the voice i see vague figures duck behind objects as i turn my head. Recently, along with all this, i have been experiencing mood shifts that dont seem possible. Every half hour has been either extremely depressing and suicidal, or euphoric and im basically god. Not hour by hour, half hours. I cant keep my head in one place at all.
I have kept this to myself because i feel an increasing paranoia. I have never had this happen, i have no idea what is happening anymore. I cant even tell if im awake half the time in the past 3 days. Its getting so bad and i have no idea what to do. I know i am not schizophrenic or something, ive NEVER had this kind of thing happen. But the figures and sounds and paranoia and mood swings are becoming so intense that i cant even tell if i am awake as i type this
Ive been feeling very wrong lately for returning to the comfort of my previous aroace identity while still being with my boyfriend of three years. For many years before meeting him, i never once felt romantic or sexual attraction to anyone. I started identifying as aroace and it felt so freeing and wonderful. When i met him, i went on a few dates and i found i really enjoyed his company. When he asked that we make it official, i threw out all my aroace pride stuff i collected over the years. I still dont think i exactly feel romantic or sexual attraction, but i deeply care for him and i think it could be defined as love. But deep down i feel like he’s my very very best friend who i have sex with. Im not sex repulsed, i just dont feel any sex drive and i dont feel arousal until he gets me going with physical stimulation. But calling myself “straight” has felt so so wrong and the wrongness i feel has been building up these past three years. A few days ago i had a breakdown and told him how i felt, that i used to identify as aroace and i still feel like i am. He said he’s okay with that, and he would accommodate to what i was comfortable with even if it meant celibacy (which i was very shocked to hear.)
But i still feel like im a gross offense to the aroace community if i were to identify as aroace. Im in a relationship, i have sex. I cant possibly say im aroace without offending this community.
Is there any other label that would apply to me? Are there any aroace people who have similar experiences? Im really struggling with this aspect of my identity and its genuinely impacting a lot about how i view myself and my choices.