i asked on here a month ago but lets go again…!
basically i just need something that doesn’t lean into common fanfic tropes and is mature and well written. like genuinely u can tell the author is a true writer.
that’s it basically! thanks again guys
i’m currently 18, and when my nana was 70 she first got diagnosed with alzhemirs. her own mother had it and 1 other sister as well (8-9 kids in total in this family)
my nana had 5 children, 1 of which is my dad. on my grandfathers side of the family alzhemirs was nót present.
what keeps me up at night is the thought of my dad or his siblings getting it, and then of course potentially me as well.
can somebody please relax me? i am so scared
currently i am 18. my ed was bad at 11-16, but now i’ve managed to stay recovered, and eat well.
however i’ve only recovered to the bare minimum that doctors consider healthy. im a healthy weight but on the lower side of it. this is how i keep my health in check and my ed quiet.
but now comes the scary part. women on tiktok always talk about a second puberty in your 20s, where your weight blows up if your not careful.
i know i cant be 18 forever, but my whole life i’ve never really been anything other than slim. and i’m afraid, if i ever get to be a bit heavier, my illness will take me. i’m so afraid it will kill me.
cause i’m already so insecure at this weight, but i know i cant look the same forever.
is this whole 2nd puberty real or do you think i can maintain my weight in the long run?
i was once put on a very small dosage of olanzapine which is also used to treat schizophrenia to help me with my anorexic thoughts.
the years since i’ve always noticed that if i was on a break from education, or was not busy doing something, my head gets a lot lot louder and the risk of relapsing for me gets a lot higher. for me the best way to recover has been to keep myself occupied-studying, working and not spending a lot of time in my own thoughts.
the voice of my eating disorder is still there, and it seems like it will always be there-however the more i engage in damaging activities the stronger it becomes.
this has all got me thinking-is anorexia / eds in general forms of psychosis? is there a link between periods of relapse and psychotic episodes? because for me i think the more i continue to eat the lesser the impact of my internal voice has on me. but it still has the power to get very very loud-especially say if before college i went on a gap year.
i NEED long winded niche fanfic recommendation that is genuinely well written; and doesnt really on common fanfic tropes, and is long as well.
think sometjing like adrien is not 2D as in the show and it’s almost philosophical and written from a female perspective.
PLEASE save me with ur niche recommendations 🙏
P.S i’ve already read truth and consequence; back to us but thats sooort of it. i’m so picky 😭