u/PrincesaBrillante20

I have trust problems, i

Dont trust love anymore, I hate humans (including myself), i have exiety, panic attacks, I bearly eat, I dont trust in my family anymore due to me questioning love, i hate humanity, i am a empath which this makes it worse, I can't look at children faces anymore cuz it triggers me, every persone i look i think "will this one choose survival too?" And i

It disstreses me cuz I am not a force survival persone i dont force kids or people into agony just to survive. I use

To be a fan of hazbin hotel and now i hate it cuz my favorite characters would choose survival and it makes me uncomfortable cuz i dont belive in survival at all cost like that. Guys pls help i cant take it anymore. I cant be around people i hate people and in thinking of ending it but i dont want to cuz I love my cat hes my baby and i dont want to leave him alone. IM a empath which this makes it worse

(THIS IS HAPPENING IN GAZA BY THE WAY)

Hey guys ever since i learn there were surgery and amputation without anestesia done in gaza made me see love differently. I get that those people were traumatize and desperate. But for me survival is not always the best choice. I'm not the kind of persone that believes in survival at all cost. I belive that some things are worse than death. Ever since i found out I'm afraid of love im afraid of what people would put me through to safe me. I belive the kids in gaza should die and rest in peace not force survival that way. If the persone is gonna suffer physiological trauma and pure agony to save them not to mention the unsafe space of those hospital I believe the kids should die in peace not force into survival. Not because I'm giving up on them, no never that. Is because i don't want them to suffer. And i belive life shouldn't be liven in suffering. This is why afraid of being love because people my do this to me. They don't care about their concent or autonomy they only care of what their afraid of which is losing their love ones. I feel like living is unsafe and love is unsafe. I belive in survival but not in that way.

(How can i heal from this?)

Hi im Cristina im 17 years old and I always have problems with my pearents my mom is controling and I love her but at the same time I feel that she's traumatized and the reason why she's controlling due to how her pearents treated her. My dad is a assholes he supports Trump he makes fun of rape and has toxic masculinity. When I was 14 I got sexually assaulted by my female principal I told my dad and he made fun of me because I am lesbian and he said "well don't complain u got what u wanned" then smirk and walk away. Fast forward I tried to end my life because my pearents were extremely strict and controlling. I had parental controls I had no privacy, I couldn't date ,my privet conversations with my friends were read out loud and mock. I got therapy but it didn't help my therapist ignore me when I talk about how much trauma my pearents cause me she said I was the problem she even told my pearents my suicide attempts and self harm was a way to manipulate them she told them that. She treated me like crap I just wanted someone to listen and she made my pearents care less about me. She push me to the edge I had a mental breakdown in her office and destroyed a painting. And before her I had another therapist but she never listen to how I felt either she just said I have to follow and obey my pearents rules. It made me feel alone because what my pearents had weren't rules how were control. I told her about the times my dad broke my toys, about how my mom scream at me about how I felt like my feelings didn't matter. How I felt jealous of other kids who's pearents actually care how they felt. She was like: "oh there your pearents you need to follow their instructions and forgive and forget". I decided to stop coming to therapy all together because therapy is fake and stupid. It does more harm than good or at least in my experience. I was also in a mental hospital too and the experience was disgusting. They ran some test are normal right? Until they wanted to do the genital swab I told them no that I didn't feel comfortable due to my history of SA. You Wanna know what the nurse said?!? She said " if u don't cooperate we gonna have to pin you down and spread your legs and take the swabs". I completely shut down and I had no choice to let her do it just like my principal did to me let her do it. Children and teenagers mental heathcare sucks. So yeah guys don't trust therapy or mental health supports if your a minor. Til this day I avoid getting mental help or going to therapy. Im also against su1c1dé prevention i belive if a persone wants to leave this world their choice should be respected and yall need to mind their own business

Hi. Im againts restraining kids for medical prosidure just because they said no. If u restrain a kid you are losing their trust and not only that you also creating unnecessary trauma and medical trauma. Im sick of seeing kids held down just for stitches and injections. If there scared then comfort them but dont restrain them and if they dont want to do it then dont force them. Explain to them the pros and the cons of doing and not doing and let the kid choose. Or at least sedate them just dont hold them down. Like it angers me im sick and tired of seeing kids held down cuz your teaching them that their concent doesn't matter

Can i buy them less than 10k? Plss