u/Professional-Fix2465

This is embarrassing to admit as a 29F but my “toolbox” is no longer working to help me self regulate and I don’t know what to do. I’m constantly on edge and feel like my skin is crawling no matter what I do to try and mange it. When I’m overstimulated the go to is to “get the jitters out” and I often dance/ run after work. And I feel like I never run enough. On really bad days I just sit in the shower in the dark and try deep breathing/ visualizing the bad day going down the drain. I give myself at least 10 minutes in the morning to meditate and often use a weighted blanket. When it’s really bad my SO will lay on me. The only real relief I get is when I smoke THC but I was doing great not using drugs of any sort for months. I’ve also had my back go out and have been in chronic pain for the last month and I feel that’s adding to my over stimulation. What could I add to help?

I’m wondering if any of you may have any advice on just feeling completely disconnected from your immediate family. No matter how much I try I just feel like an outsider looking in even in regard to my immediate family. When I go to visit or to a family event I just feel extraordinarily lonely. I feel like I can never “win” or get anything “right”. They complain when I don’t show up but even when I go they ignore me or just put me down. I feel like no one wants me there. I just moved out and they planned a get together and were like I missed you, etc though when we left they gave my sister a big huge and were all saying I love you to each other. Though when I left I barely got a goodbye. I guess I’ll never stop grieving the type of relationship I wish I had with my immediate family but I wish these events would just stop leaving me feeling completely unlovable and disliked. Worse, I know there’s not a lot I can do besides try and heal the part of me that feels this way. I don’t have any memories of not feeling this way. What do you all do to try and get past this feeling when it arises?

I’m wondering if any of you may have any advice on just feeling completely disconnected from your immediate family. No matter how much I try I just feel like an outsider looking in even in regard to my immediate family. When I go to visit or to a family event I just feel extraordinarily lonely. I feel like I can never “win” or get anything “right”. They complain when I don’t show up but even when I go they ignore me or just put me down. I feel like no one wants me there. I just moved out and they planned a get together and were like I missed you, etc though when we left they gave my sister a big huge and were all saying I love you to each other. Though when I left I barely got a goodbye. I guess I’ll never stop grieving the type of relationship I wish I had with my immediate family but I wish these events would just stop leaving me feeling completely unlovable and disliked. Worse, I know there’s not a lot I can do besides try and heal the part of me that feels this way. I don’t have any memories of not feeling this way. What do you all do to try and get past this feeling when it arises?

I’m 29F and have had a really bad lower back muscle spasm. To the point I was crawling to get around. I went to the doctor and was given a muscle relaxer and anti inflammatory (cephalexin and benzaprine). My doctor said I should have felt better 4 days in. It has almost been a week and it’s not better. I can walk without excruciating pain but not fast or for long periods. I’m walking hunched over and still can’t turn left or right without pain. Now it’s mostly just the base of my spine that generally has a very intense burning pain. When should I go back to the doctor? Is this recovery period normal?

My stomach constantly hurts. I’m always bloated, gassy, and often constipated. I drink lots of water and drink coffee. I walk all the time for work and often after. I eat a ton of apples and chia seeds. I still often have to take stool softeners as I can go 4+ days without passing a bowel movement. Please help.