u/ProfessionalCarob509

I'm an incoming freshman and I went on orientation today (long story but I had to reschedule it oof)

Dude. My stomach is lowkey killing me, like I'm in so much pain right now it's insane.

I thought about what I had eaten and I'm dying here in my bathroom at 6 in the morning.

Has anyone else experienced this after eating Ike's

I really hope this is a me issue..

I had the pork loin, mac and cheese and green beans.

The pork was dry asf, and I ate most of the mac and cheese and all of the green beans.

And to be completely honest with you guys, I have a small stomach eat small snacks and I basically eat 2 meals a day and I'm completely fine! Usually- but I'm honestly convinced it was the pork or something.

Idk I went to sleep and I woke up in extreme pain, and now I'm writing this.

Lmk your experiences..!

Hi everyone, I feel really ashamed of this and I know this is like totally insane and I need to leave immediately before we start I'll say that it's currently 3:27 am and I'm seeing my therapist later today so I will get help soon.

I F18 just turned too, have always been on the internet and on sites like omegle or umingle now.. And about 5 days ago I met a guy whose in my area about 25 minutes away he M22 and I hung out like 2 days after we originally met.

I'm starting college on the 24th, and I don't have my drivers license yet, so I made the really really REALLY stupid decision to lie to my mom saying I was hanging out with my friend at the mall when instead he got me an Uber and I met him in person.

I know I put myself in a really dangerous position.

We went to his house after walking around the local mall, and I had gotten picked up by my mom after at a really late hour... Saying that oh he's my friends friend and she was in the bathroom in his house. When in reality him and I had sex and his family were just arguing about random things so I sat outside with him and his friend.

The next day he invited me to hangout with his friends at a park, and I went and it was really really fun after I went to his house again and had sex again. I texted my mom and due to poor planning got home at 11:30 at night.. He road with me in a Uber and my mom was really upset that I had stayed out.

I didn't see him the day after that, but the next day we decided to hangout again, my mom asked me if I was going to hangout with him and I said yes and after talking we even made me a curfew.

Which I then instantly broke. He and his dad picked me up we hung around and got Starbucks and when we went back to his house we again had sex.

He then asked if I wanted to stay over and I told him about my mom and he immediately said "You're an adult you have freedom to stay out." He kinda guilt me into having a mini argument with my mom and instead of coming to get me she let me stay over and told me to call in the morning to get picked up.

Long story short him and I fought in the middle of the night and then we had sex again.

I felt like shit and I still do.

I spent the whole day with him at the gym he introduced me as his 'girlfriend' to both his gym friends AND father. After the gym we went to dinner with his dad and after, got dropped off at my house at 5:30.

My mom was NOT happy whatsoever which is reasonable. We made up later.

Later he called me to say "Hey I really like you but I am VERY insecure, and I'm scared that everyone is going to hurt me if I get into a relationship or I'm going to hurt them somehow... I really love you and I'll be your friend forever but you're starting college and I won't leave but can we wait until Halloween and we can start dating?"

And I said "Okay..! That works"

I called him later and he and I talked more and he started to say that he "Misses me and that I should come over" mind you it was 1:30 am.. And I told him "I really can't" and he said that "I should be able to sneak out of the house" and when I told him about my mom he said I'm letting her coddle me and that everyone sneaks out, and that it's "normal" and most people start to leave in the middle of the night at 16-17 so I should "have no problem leaving" and when I told him that healthy families aren't like that he started getting irritated. He then removed me on my socials and when I noticed I called his cell

he picked up instantly and immediately asked if I was okay, when I told him I noticed that he had done that he immediately said "no no no I still *love* you I just had a panic attack"

I am scared and I'm trying to pretend like everything is fine but I'm genuinely like shit what have I gotten myself into..

If anyone can recommend steps to take please let me know.

Hello! I feel a bit nervous about me revisiting my Faith as a Catholic but I just wanted to share with you all my Journey and thoughts recently.

TW for mention of ED

It was my birthday recently, and I'm now 18! Hooray!

I was raised Catholic and even went to Catholic school from Kindergarten to 8th grade. I struggled a lot with being accepted by my peers in middle school and got bullied a lot socially. The COVID pandemic was a factor in this as well because I was in 6th grade when quarantine started, online for 7th, and then back In person for 8th. But I was being bullied before the pandemic started anyway.

After being bullied, struggling with depression and an eating disorder. I grew further and further away from my Faith.

I was put into public school while some of the kids I literally grew up with went to Catholic school and continued going to Church and being apart of the community.

I remember in 8th grade a week before my Confirmation, I was putting the Eucharist in my locker to avoid eating it because of Calories (that's how obsessed I was) I had about 17 or more hosts in my locker.

A kid in my class noticed me putting it there and told the Principal on me, I really didn't understand the importance of it at the time and instead just felt guilty and ashamed of myself for everything. I was noticed by the people around me but I wasn't seen or helped in anyway.

I felt so alone.

My mom is Catholic but doesn't practice much and my Grandma is also Catholic they both are married to Jewish men who really only celebrate Hanukkah and nothing else.

My mom divorced her ex-husband when my brother was around 2 or 3 because of a mental health issue he had and the ex-husband was Catholic as well.

My brother who has an 8 year difference than me went to the same Catholic school, and after he went to Private Catholic High school. I don't know much on his religious beliefs or journey, and honestly he is pretty corny with everything now that he doesn't really take anything seriously.

During my Junior year in high school I met a girl who was really involved in her Church (Non-demoninational). I mentioned my experience being Catholic and that I never really went back but a lot of the morals and virtues sticked. One day she came up to me asking for me to pray for her and it really changed my view on the power prayer has for some people.

Her father is a Marine and was being deployed during a tough time. I thought to myself about what she might have struggled with growing up as a military child and I thought that I really should change the way I think about caring for others, by actually starting to take action and care for them through prayer.

I started to pray before my meals again, I started to think and clear my mind when I'm struggling and pray for guidance, and I started to do things I haven't done since 8th grade.

The last time I went to Church was Easter 2025. I felt at peace again. I participated in Lent this year but, I didn't go to Church. I hadn't realized I missed it until I remembered that I was participating in Lent.

Do I read the Bible? Not as much as I should. Today I remembered I was given a Bible for my 8th grade Confirmation. I told my mom that I wanted to talk to her about something important and first asked where my Confirmation Bible was. My mom took it and put it somewhere else I asked her where it was and she told me she gave it away. Ouch. That was a massive hit to me.

She told me we had other Bibles, but that really wasn't a sliver lining to me. I feel awful and guilty and I'm upset at her because it really wasn't hers to give away. I told her I was upset that she did that and she said "When are you not upset".

I feel so awful and terrible and just wish I wasn't treated like this by people I'd thought would take me serious when talking about my goals of practicing again. To her it isn't a big deal but to me it is.

I plan for when my College starts to join the Catholic Mass they offer. I want to learn more and I want to practice again. The biggest thing is I want to lead and help others that may have gone through the same struggles I have. But I know I have to start with myself first.

I pray that everyone who has read my story this far to know that you're not alone, and that you're loved by Christ. You matter and you're important.

God Bless you all, and if anyone has advice or words they'd like to share please feel free to.