u/ProfessionalTap2177

My bf (m30) and i (f27) have been together for 2and a half years. Our relationship is great. We do alot with each other but literally our intimacy have been lacking. Like i never had someone where i have to almost beg to have sex with someone. I iniate all the time and its always an excuse where its too late, too tired, not the “right spot” so im stuck at like when tf is the right time? He works a labor intensive job . But even on the weekends when were doing stuff together. I dont even remember the last time ive had morning sex with him. Probably has been months. I just dont get it.

I came on here because i literally have been asking him about sex and ive brought this up to him more than u can count. we talk about it . Changes for a week then back at the same habit. Its just a never ending cycle. Ive been iniating sex everyday this week and Hes turned me down every single time.

Am i wrong for noticing. ( i took out the trash yesterday put a new trash bag in, nothing is in the trash but one paper towel.) i noticed a smell and it was lingering in the kitchen. Ik this sounds crazy but i smelled the trash and i noticed the smell. Its a distinct smell. I Picked up the paper towel. Smelled it and its a fucking CUM RAG. I got so fucking upset. I bursted into tears ..

The obvious answer is probably to leave. But no we have a besutiful life together and if this were to be fixed id be the happiest girl on the planet. I want to work things out with him. I dont plan on looking for someone else. I keep overthinking all of this tho.

Like wtf am i doing wrong? My head is all over the place . I keep thinking maybe its me or maybe he has someone else? Idk, but my heart hurts and i cant sleep. Anyone that could possibly help? Ive been praying nonstop but i really just need to talk to someone.. thanks

I am F/27 and dating a M/30 for 2 years now. Ive been realizing
Ive been realizing i have been acting very miserable everytime i drink around my bf. Especially around his friends. Apparently he was embarrassed of me tonight because of me acting all pouty towards the last 30min of the night when i was drinking and starting to get into my feelings. We went to his best friend’s girlfriend’s bday party. A girl , she is friends with , hooked up with my boyfriend before me. So every time i see her i just get mad. I was fine earlier in the night until i started to drink more i just got more upset and apparently his friend noticed i looked upset. My bf said i embarrassed him… am i wrong for feeling some type of way? I dont fake emotions.. but i even pulled him aside asking to leave and somehow im the bad guy??? I just need some insight. I feel like i now put a damper in our relationship because i make it look like im upset around his friends and hes embarrassed from what happened.. hes expressed that to me that i dont make him feel like himself and i feel like at this point i pushed him away at this point . Like why am i with him if i just upset him? Im lost for words or what to do or say.. tmrw we have plans to go on this motorcycle run. I almost want to stay back and give him space..