someone told me to stay away from the barebell birthday cake bar but as a birthday cake lover i’ll be the one to test it. halo top and quest crispy are so good for birthday cake flavor tho so im not sure if anything will top them but ill report back
i used to be strong. i may have been bigger and unhappy with my body but i used to be strong. now i can barely rearrange my room by myself, hold up my instrument for long periods, or do anything physical without feeling weak and tired. i was so proud to be strong. i’m the weakest boy i know now (not considering people below my age.) it’s so saddening
can i be dubbed the quest crispy king or is that too much to ask???
anyone know anymore birthday cake flavored things
i confronted my groomer but i feel like because i was so aggressive, im just trying to be a victim and im not actually one. i feel disgusting. i miss his attention and care and love but i hate him and i just want closure. i feel like if im too harsh, thats just proof that im not actually vulnerable and i wasn’t groomed. maybe he’s not taking accountability because there isnt anything to hold him accountable for. i’m clearly in control of myself and im not as vulnerable as my head is telling me so that means im not a victim. i have no idea if this makes any sense because everything i write when im emotional can never fully convey how i feel or view things so i just write what i think and it doesn’t always flow coherently.
he was only 3 years older than me and we are both minors. we never had intercourse but we did do sexual things that i usually wasn’t comfortable with but i feel like i should’ve just been more firm and not let myself be convinced out of my boundaries every time i set them just because i was afraid he would leave me. i know i was extremely vulnerable due to past experiences but maybe i should’ve just ended things or never started them in the first place. i feel disgusting. i feel like it’s my fault and i feel like it’s hard to even ask other people what they think because i can’t fully explain the situation without also explaining my past and my headspace during it. i just hate myself and i wish i had just been stronger because i feel like i wasn’t groomed and it was just my fault for being that vulnerable and being a pushover
if there’s less people, we wouldn’t need to print as much money. that’s where my thought process is but i genuinely have no idea
i’m not in recovery but i did up my intake to keep suspicion down during summer and to gain food and water weight for doctor appointments. my resting heart rate has gone from 45 to 88 + i no longer have low blood pressure and for some reason these are the things triggering me the most. does anyone else feel this?
why am i doing this to myself? my chest feels empty and hurts constantly. my head feels so off. i can’t stand it anymore and im so hungry. the thought of not tracking >!calories!< sends me into panic and i just want to recover so bad but i don’t at the same time. i miss being a kid and eating anything i wanted. i would say that i didn’t care about how i looked, but ive hated my body since i was 9. i just never changed my eating habits and honestly i wish i never did because i miss being happy