u/Psychologicalmatt

OPINION:

The following in an opinion piece.

With my own experiences with narcissistic abuse and my own mental health I've always had a fascination with Britney Spears, how such an innocent humble person who seemed to be on top of the world has had very public ongoing extreme mental health struggles.

The sad reality of the public mocking her, lack of understanding and simply thinking it's just her.

From her previous voice recordings and public knowledge of her previous conservatorship and the obvious signs of her declined mental health I personally believe / in my opinion she wasn't placed into a conservatorship because she wasn't capable but to control her.

Britney described constant monitoring (ie in the shower), dominance / power, ie Father would say "I am Britney', forcing her to work and control every aspect of her life. Her mother seemed to enabled this or was possibly a victim herself who knows.

I think having no independence for a long period of time, essentially being institutionalised, controlled, forced to work while claimed as too unwell to be independent in front of the public would be a different kind of cruelty. It's Britney's reactions people see not the behind the scenes of what happened, so it's easy for the world to label her as 'crazy' and not believe her either.

Again this is my opinions, non factual.

Does anyone else see the parallels between high-profile conservatorships and standard narcissistic family dynamics?

Does anyone else notice notice the link between people who love power/NPD symptoms and human suffering/oppression?

The topic of narcissism has increased popularity and I agree we can't label everyone who has a high ego or wants power as NPD but I do think possibly all abusers contain high NPD traits.

I absolutely adore Britney such a kind soul with iconic timeless music.

I've been scared to share my story because I'm afraid people won't believe me but that's ok if people don't.

I have diagnosed BPD and ADHD.

1.5 years ago I went off my mood stablisers because I was doing so well or so I thought. I was so happy dating the love of my life and had lots of friends.

Unfortunately from here I started increasing my cannabis use to self medicate on top of stimulants. I became quite unwell which I take responsibility for, I was in the driver's seat and lost control.

I started picking fights with my partner at the time. While I was so unwell this guy came into my life as a friend, he bought me a necklace at a party I didn't think much of it. He was so charming the most charming person, he gave me all these compliments and was switching from hot to cold over a period of months. I think in my unwell state which I can only describe as some sort of mania I started chasing him and left my relationship of 4 years suddenly causing devastating affects on someone I care about so much. I felt an addiction to this new person like an addict on a pokies machine. I wasn't sleeping or eating properly at all over months, I continued the cannabis in huge amounts, high stimulants and kept chasing this person who knew exactly what he was doing, he constantly made me feel like the most special person to a peice of shit over and over and I kept chasing him in some sort state of dissociation. I feel like my nervous system was completed hijacked. He started following me from fake instagram accounts on top of his normal account, would tell me not to hook up with others, asked why I was in his area (must have tracked from an app), was watching me excessively on an app, asked if I brought people home. It kept me completely hooked I felt so trapped.

I realised I was in a trauma bond and had this absolutely devastating crash to reality I pushed away my fav person on this earth permanently. But also the guilt of abandoning him and the pain I caused him. He trusted me.

From here i tried to cut the guy I ran for (NPD I can only assume) and I received 50 + calls over 2 months from No Caller ID I can only assume were him, after I blocked him on Insta he would grab me by the neck and waist, massive amounts of fake insta accounts following me and watching my every move, my mailbox was broken into, the intense death stares in public places. I cannot assume all of this was him but it seems not a coincidence. The smirking, the games, rocking up to gym when I did probs because of the app that allowed him to track me. He even admitted to someone he tracks 'friends' and he told my friend he likes to have power over people.

I take full responsibility for my role in not taking care of my MH, i take responsibility in leaving my partner and not having better boundaries with someone. However this was the most devastating thing I have ever experienced in my entire life.

I'm still so in love with my ex and truly did not want to leave him but I did. It's a wakeup call to take care of myself but it's also a wakeup call that there are some absolute narcissistic / antisocial disorder people out there who see something good like my relationship and want to completely destroy it.

A year after the breakup and I am still devastated. I told my ex after I realised what had happened but it's too late, I understand the trauma I caused was probably too big to recover from.

I'm curious as to what people think of this, it's so hard being believed.

I've been scared to share my story because I'm afraid people won't believe me but that's ok if people don't.

I have diagnosed BPD and ADHD.

1.5 years ago I went off my mood stablisers because I was doing so well or so I thought. I was so happy dating the love of my life and had lots of friends.

Unfortunately from here I started increasing my cannabis use to self medicate on top of stimulants. I became quite unwell which I take responsibility for, I was in the driver's seat and lost control.

I started picking fights with my partner at the time. While I was so unwell this guy came into my life as a friend, he bought me a necklace at a party I didn't think much of it. He was so charming the most charming person, he gave me all these compliments and was switching from hot to cold over a period of months. I think in my unwell state which I can only describe as some sort of mania I started chasing him and left my relationship of 4 years suddenly causing devastating affects on someone I care about so much. I felt an addiction to this new person like an addict on a pokies machine. I wasn't sleeping or eating properly at all over months, I continued the cannabis in huge amounts, high stimulants and kept chasing this person who knew exactly what he was doing, he constantly made me feel like the most special person to a peice of shit over and over and I kept chasing him in some sort state of dissociation. I feel like my nervous system was completed hijacked. He started following me from fake instagram accounts on top of his normal account, would tell me not to hook up with others, asked why I was in his area (must have tracked from an app), was watching me excessively on an app, asked if I brought people home. It kept me completely hooked I felt so trapped.

I realised I was in a trauma bond and had this absolutely devastating crash to reality I pushed away my fav person on this earth permanently. But also the guilt of abandoning him and the pain I caused him. He trusted me.

From here i tried to cut the guy I ran for (NPD I can only assume) and I received 50 + calls over 2 months from No Caller ID I can only assume were him, after I blocked him on Insta he would grab me by the neck and waist, massive amounts of fake insta accounts following me and watching my every move, my mailbox was broken into, the intense death stares in public places. I cannot assume all of this was him but it seems not a coincidence. The smirking, the games, rocking up to gym when I did probs because of the app that allowed him to track me. He even admitted to someone he tracks 'friends' and he told my friend he likes to have power over people.

I take full responsibility for my role in not taking care of my MH, i take responsibility in leaving my partner and not having better boundaries with someone. However this was the most devastating thing I have ever experienced in my entire life.

I'm still so in love with my ex and truly did not want to leave him but I did. It's a wakeup call to take care of myself but it's also a wakeup call that there are some absolute narcissistic / antisocial disorder people out there who see something good like my relationship and want to completely destroy it.

A year after the breakup and I am still devastated. I told my ex after I realised what had happened but it's too late, I understand the trauma I caused was probably too big to recover from.

I'm curious as to what people think of this, it's so hard being believed.