I will never forgive my family for homeschooling me
I tell people that I'm homeschooled and they say they're jealous and they'd give anything to be homeschooled. Maybe its great if your parents aren't religiously brainwashed and didn't treat you like shit. I started being "homeschooled" when i was about 10, in 6th grade when Covid hit. I already was a bit of a weird kid and but I always had at least one friend. I liked school not because i enjoyed learning but it was an escape from my terrible homelife. Yeah i got picked on but it was bearable. I was stuck at home every day with my abusive step mom who would punch me and choke me when I didn't understand something. I'm away from her now living with my cousins at my grandparents' house. My grandpa is a narcissist and attempts "homeschooling." he grades nothing, verbally berates my and my two cousins daily among other terrible things. I dont feel like i've truly learned since 5th grade. I feel like ive been stagnant and under stimulated to the point i've been diagnosed with Depression (and PTSD from my step mom). I've been promised that next year I can do a curriculum online and for a few months I was genuinely excited until they decided that they would take it back. I'm trying not to cry while typing this I just want this to end so badly I just want to get away. I used to SH a lot now I either drink or vape instead because people made a fuss about the scars. I probably sound like some edgelord, I guess I am since i get very limited social interaction and whenever im forced to go to Church youth group i feel extremely anxious and I keep to myself so I dont look like a massive idiot. Thanks for listening to my rant, i hope nobody else experiences this but i know there are others like me too out there.