My son wore makeup for the first time today
So not even sure where to start. My 14yr old son let me and his step mom know last week that they would want to start wearing femine makeup. He told her privately and she brought it to me per her request.
So we are a very leftist pro lgbtq+ household. I am very in the punk community and I ahev always encouraged my son to be who he wants to be no matter what. They are such an awesome kid and have always been. Me and his mom had him at 19 and 20, and she abandoned him basically at 4, and I have had sole custody since then.
Now that he is 14, he has a cell phone and stuff and tbh i do check his phone for safety reasons...and if im being honest just being nosey. I know that he has been curious about himself very much so and I am very supportive of his choices....
That being said. We went and got him.makeup.and a wig today to try it out. My wife helped him.and I had to go out for a bit. When I came back he was in the bathroom. About 10 mi later he walks out in full makeup and a wig..
At first I was so taken aback I couldn't really speak. I smiled, hugged him and fixed his wig cause it was a but crooked. I hugged him tight and told him. I love him and Im proud of him. We all talked for a bit and I asked him how he felt and he said kinda weird but comfortable.
He went back to his room to get ready for dinner and im in the garage crying now... 😢 it is so hard to see my beautiful boy as a girl outwardly. It feels.like me son has died. I kkownits selfish asf and I am supportive to him in every way...but selfishly, i am kinda tucked up right now. He was beautiful btw. Which also makes me cry. I am scared for my black LGBT son. I am so scared. The game is already on hard mode for em and that's not their fault, but it is hard. When I look at them in makeup. I dont see my kid. It's heartbreaking tbh.
I do t know what to do. I love him/them all the same and I will be supporting them in every way possible, but why does it feel like i dont have my son anymore? And why am I fucking crying lmao.