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I have been cutting a lot recently and I don’t really know why. Well I have a reason for one area I cut and it’s for each time I relapse at an addiction I have. It’s like I try to quit but I just can’t myself so I guess it’s kind of a punishment but also maybe an eye opener to how much harder I need to try. Things have just been so shit recently and I just don’t know whether to laugh or cry. Everyone says how proud of me they and that I could be doing great and stuff but I’m just stuck and feeling like a dumbass. I have only told one person that I have been cutting and it’s only cause they are in a different country and can’t tell anyone I know about it. Just wanted to get some stuff off my chest cause I don’t want to tell anyone I know about this. I do plan to see a therapist though so hopefully that will help. Be safe y’all!!

I got drunk last night and ended up cutting myself multiple times. I don’t really regret it except that I don’t want the marks to draw attention cause the people who know me would probably freak out which I don’t want. The cuts aren’t super deep but they drew blood that just kinda welled up but never like flowed or anything. I live in a pretty hot region so it’s not uncommon for people to wear thin long sleeves to protect from the sun. But I like never wear any sporty thin clothes and usually wear short sleeves. Any help on how to cover them up would be much appreciated or just where to go from here, I am looking for a therapist so there is that. Thank you!