Lonely or alone or idk !! 🙃

Lonely or alone or idk !! 🙃

Idk why but lately, I’ve been feeling really lonely, even when I’m surrounded by people. It’s literally such a strange feeling because I’m not technically alone, but deep down, I still feel like I am.

I can talk to people, laugh with them, spend time with them, and still go home feeling empty. Sometimes I feel like nobody truly understands me, like people know me anthe but don’t really know what am I , what’s gng on inside my burra or heart. 😒😵‍💫

I want genuine connections. I want to feel understood without having to explain every little thing. I want someone to notice when I’m not okay, someone who checks up on me because they genuinely care, not because I asked them to.

Janalu Unaru but I don’t feel included……I miss my frnds a lot, it’s really hard to find ur ppl or the ppl who truly understands u. Every step lo na ug frnds gurthu vasthunaru. I literally think I’ve been sooo sooo lucky in friendships ani but ikkada situations are proving me wrong. 😭

Sometimes I feel invisible, even around people I see every day. Other times, I don’t even know what I’m missing. Nothing particularly bad has to happen, but there’s still this emptiness I can’t seem to explain.

The worst part is that I don’t know how to talk about it without feeling like I’m being dramatic or ungrateful. I have people around me, so why do I still feel so alone?
I wonder if anyone else feels this way. Does anyone else feel lonely even when they’re surrounded by people? How do you deal with it? Does it ever get better?
I just needed somewhere to let this out because keeping everything to myself is getting exhausting. ( Andhuke my journal , ChatGPT and music became my best friends now ) 🤧

Chillar panchayithi flair kuda baguntadhi emo kadha 😂

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 5 days ago

Street shopping fit !! 😁

Location - Rajwada palace , Indore 📍

First pic lo bubbles are the unpaid artist 😁😂

Idk whether the flair is gng well with the fit but yeah 🤷🏻‍♀️

Btw na stickers ni em anakandi 😭 Manchi stickers petta

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

Dharshnam fit check !! ❤️✨

Location - Ujjain mahakaleshwar jyothirlingam📍
basmaarti + mid night dharshan ✨

Ma home minister tho twinning cheyadam jargindhi 😁

My kurti set is from Avaasa

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

Ofc I should go with the trend !! 😂

Whoever started this trend…..omg thnq so much !! ❤️
Going through the album felt really nice 🥹 I’ve been laughing af looking at those pictures 😂✨🫶

  1. Nenu and my fav pink Pokémon cycle !! 😁😂
  2. Bridgerton inspired gown ( I was forced to pose like that by my mom ) 🤧
  3. I love my chinna pillakalu and my pink Barbie pins 💖
  4. That’s my cutu brother with his cute cycle
  5. More than mine i like my brother’s outfit
  6. That’s my cousin who’s always annoyed with me and my actions 🤣
u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

OOTD ft Car delivery 💗✨

Kurti and bottom - AJIO
Heels - westside
Bag ( not visible ) but it’s from Guess
Watch also from Guess

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

From a spoiled brat to a responsible father ✨

My dad bought a car today with his own savings, and I'm genuinely so happy for him.

My dad has had car pichi ever since we were kids. But every car he bought until now was with my thatha’s paisal . It's not generational wealth or anything ( my thatha is a self-made, hardworking businessman ). Since my dad was the only boy, he was honestly a bit of a spoiled brat.

Over the past few years, things changed after he had a few issues with his dad and we moved out from our grandparents . It was messy at the time, but looking back, I think it was for our good.

Today, he's buying stuff he always wanted with his own savings . He paid for my bachelor's degree, and now he's going to fund my master's too. Ngl but my brother's college antha my thatha is taking care of. but seeing my dad slowly become financially responsible makes me really happy. ( ante my thatha and my dad are cool now so my dad is only operating my grandfather’s business )

He still has his own bokkalu tho 😂 and there are times I get really annoyed with him. But I can't deny that I'm proud of this change. There's something so satisfying about watching someone buy the things they've always wanted with money they earned themselves.

Sometimes I’m a proud kid of my father. 😁

I just hope he keeps growing from here. 😭🧿

Idk but na happiness ikkada panchukovali anipinchindhi so yhhhh ❤️🤧

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

This edit !! ❤️🤍

Eppudo ninnu x Hrudhayam jaripe

Saw this in a reel and tried editing omg this is so perfect and entha manchiga sync ayindhi 🥹✨

Also eppdo ninnu is my fav fav fav song from Sita ramam album 💗

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

Yentha Sakkagunnave !! ✨

Whole song is 10/10 but these lyrics are 100/10 🫶🫶

తిరునాళ్లలో తప్పి ఎడ్సెటి బిడ్డకు
ఎదురొచ్చిన తల్లి సిఱునవ్వు లాగ
ఎంత సక్కగున్నావే లంచమి ఎంత సక్కగున్నావే
గాలి పల్లకీలో ఎంకి ఆట లాగ
ఎంకి మాటలోనే తెలుగు మాటలాగా
ఎంత సక్కగున్నావే లచ్చ్మి ఎంత సక్కగున్నావే

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

Sometimes happiness is this simple !! 🫠✨

Sooo emaindhi ante today turned out to be one of those unexpectedly beautiful days.

Went on a solo date today ( crispy chicken burger though it doesn’t look like one but the caramel coffee is amazinggg ) , came back home, weather crazy ga undhi ani evng ala terrace paiki vella , Asal ala music pettkoni ( been looping to om namasthey from ready , a pak movie ost called behkana and Tera chehra ) so beautiful weather, a cool breeze, and my playlist on repeat. The moon hiding behind the clouds and adoring me 😁, somehow made it even prettier. Nothing extraordinary happened today, kani I’m pretty sure I’ll go to bed feeling really happy.

So today realise ayindhi endhi ante , that my favorite moments are often the quietest ones.🌥️🎧💙

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

Continuation to one of the post I saw in mahilarchy sub

Sooo I read one post , posted by u/Glum_Chemical1858….tried commenting there but I couldn’t…..but then i saw one reel on insta which felt soo freakin relatable.

This is so relatable as a chubby woman myself.

People often say, "At least you're being loved this way," but that's not the point. Being sexualized isn't the same as being genuinely appreciated.

I've noticed that plus-size women often get weird stares, annoying comments, unnecessary attention or people openly talking about our bodies, but very rarely the kind of attention that says, "I want to know you as a person." Sometimes it feels like we're seen as someone's fantasy rather than someone worth loving, dating, or building a real connection with.

Of course, there are people who genuinely love plus-size women for who they are, and I'm not saying everyone thinks this way. But it's hard to ignore how often society reduces us to our bodies instead of seeing our personality, kindness, humor, or everything else that makes us who we are.

And before anyone says, "Just lose weight," please remember that not everyone's body isn’t the same.
Many people deal with hormonal issues, health conditions, or other challenges. Respect shouldn't depend on someone's size.

Chubby girl struggles are real, and I wish more people understood the difference between feeling desired and feeling genuinely valued.

Thnq u/Glum_Chemical1858 for bringing this point.

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 3 months ago

Guess my mom was never lucky in friendships :(

My mom has two childhood friends. When my sibling and I were kids, every time we visited my grandparents house during summer vacations or holidays, amma used to meet them. Manchiga outings vellevallam , their kids would come too, ala manchiga unde ah days and it always felt so wholesome. But as years passed, those meet-ups slowly stopped. Whenever amma went to her parent’s house, my ammamma would say, Nvu intiki vachindhi nee frnds ni meet avadanika intlo undu ani So, little by little, meeting them became difficult. They never had a fight or anything. Growing up , life just changed ala , Now they're only connected through phone calls and WA texts.

Sometimes amma says, Nak frnds evaru leru and every time she says that, it hurts.

Then there was our neighbour aunty. They became really close. Evening walks, random chats, helping each other... one of those friendships that just happened naturally. But after almost five years, we had to shift houses because of family issues, ala she lost contact with that aunty and that friendship faded too.

And then came the best one. aunty in our apartment.
When my sibling and I were in hostels and my dad was at work, she was with my mom everytime and more like her person . Kalisi Shoppings ki velladam, temples ki velladam, evng walks, apartment gossip, cute aunty lunch dates... they literally did everything together. She was the companion my mom had every single day. So Today, that aunty came to say goodbye because uncle got transferred to another place.
They hugged. They cried.

Amma has been thinking about this for the last three days, and seeing her cry, I got tears in my eyes too. It's literally ten years of friendship... of course goodbye is going to hurt.

Now, I guess my mom's only friends are my dad's friends' wives.

And it made me realize something. Maybe my mom was never lucky when it came to friendships.

Sad how marriage changes so many things for women, but I feel friendships are one of the biggest sacrifices that no one really talks about. You leave your home, your people, and slowly even the friendships that meant the world at last they become phone calls, birthday wishes and memories.

Now I feel like her closest friends are just me and my ammamma.

And in a few months, I'll be leaving for my masters too.
Adhi alochisthe chaalu... naa heart chala heavy aipothundhi. Ma mummy pichidhi ayipothadhi emo ani bhayam vesthundhi. Thinking about all this , is making me cry my eyes out already. 🤧🥹
I think a lot of daughters can relate to this.

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u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 4 months ago

Weekend brunch fit !! 💗🌷

Pink lo pink kalisipoya but OP has been obsessing over baby pink lately !! 😁✨ such a cute colour it is

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 4 months ago
▲ 4 r/andhra_pradesh+1 crossposts

Got few questions - help me

Has anyone here been to ‘ Puri Jagannath Temple ‘ during Rath Yatra? I have a few queries and would really appreciate any help! 🤧

  1. So the Ratha Yatra starts on June 16. How crowded does it get during that period? Is it extremely difficult to move around or visit the temple area?

  2. Are there any VIP Darshan or Special Darshan tickets available during Rath Yatra?

  3. Will the temple be open during the first two weeks of July? i.e from July 1st to 15th

  4. The thing is I’ve already made all my travel bookings without knowing whether the temple would be open or not 😭. Some people are saying it will be open, while others are saying it won't.

If anyone has visited during this time or knows the schedule, please help me out.

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u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 4 months ago

One road trip , one sunset , memories , life talks , gossips ft.Girlhood

Went on a road trip with my childhood besties. Clicked a few pictures there and somehow ended up having one of those long life talk sessions that started casually and went on for hours.

Had lunch together, drove around with no particular plan, came back home, watched the sunset, some mandatory photo sessions with sunset , recalled everything like school memories, old gossip, embarrassing moments and all the silly things that felt like the biggest deal back then.

Sitting there watching the sunset, laughing about things that happened a decade ago, was somehow the best part.

On the drive back, I realised how lucky I've been when it comes to female friendships. We've grown, changed, moved through different phases of life, yet somehow the comfort remains the same.

Days like these are always special 💌

u/RaagiMudha-And-Rants — 4 months ago