u/Radiant-Two-220

Honestly i have tinnitus and i feel like my brain is acting weird idk if that correlates but when i zone out everything gets blurry like if i focus on something the the mirror my fave gets blank and when i standed up one time my vision got grainy and slowly closed then opened fast and it felt buzzy like a vhs

Let me advice you im not looking for attention im looking for a sign things will get better and i dont wanna hear it i just have so much time to do things im so bored and i have no actual friends so i wanna read yall opinions on this for starters as a young kid i was taken from my mother and to skip the boring things she got me back at 11 before j went back i was with my grandma and oh my gosh we were in a rich neighborhood of white people and it was fun she made sure we never ever touched a device so we always had fun in a good we we went outside played and as im writing this im tearing up because thats the most fun ive ever had (downey ca)in my life my brother was around the family would always have something and meet up but things changed after i moved back in with my mom she was around alot of gang banging areas and i fell ik with people i just didnt like not being included so i did bad things became a mean person and now im stuck with all this later on she began to get afraaive because she spent alot of money on a lawyer getting us back and it tore her apart she put alot of anger in to us and me and my brother gathered and told dcfs now im with my aunties daughter it is cool yet ive been through 3 households in the family and they all treat me like a stranger and don’t trust me its weird and honestly i just cant wait to be on my own once again between all this i have tinnitus and its scary and the ringing never stops because i listened to niche music on blast I’ve switched schools every single grade At least 2-3 times im always left out because of it and honestly I’m so tired i just bed rot or go outside with people i don’t even like girls im not even into honestly as a black male i can confidently say my type is white girls i don’t want someone who always is so entitled and i may just be too young for rls but that is just a very very short summary of everything that goes on in my life and its hell i dont give me no christianity bs please i will hate on it but yeah bored and just want opinions or other stories