u/Ramen4Brains

Remorse but no shame. I know I'm a terrible person. Platonic friendships are the only healthy relationships I can have. I've been trying to be better, but I'm haunted by my past. Every time I try to wipe the slate clean, I just slip back into degeneracy. It feels like I will never truly get rid of this part of me.

I keep seeing you guys throw "hypersexuality" around, and I'm having trouble confronting it. I wish I was normal. I wish I could take it all back. I wish I could stop.

I should be alone forever. I'm evil. I deserve everything misfortune.
Whatever.

I was just curious if anyone else has memory problems?

I can't remember the majority of my life. I get questions all the time about things I did before or questions at work regarding recent events.

Remember that time we...? Nope.

Over time I've realized my poor memory is abnormal. It didn't start with my meds. Ironically, I've been like this for as long as I can remember.

I talk a lot until I lock in. Apex, Siege, Battlefield, anything thing with guns.

I can lose every match and I don't care, I just like blasting.

Just no valorant or counterstrike.

Discord: smiv_hhb

Most important things:
I only play on PC.

Have a decent microphone, that's low-key a deal-breaker.

I don't like MOBAs, MMOs, auto-battlers, or games like Counterstrike/Valorant.

I'll basically play anything other than those kinda games.

I'm married.

More info about me:

I work full-time in the military and I'm working on my associates degree online simultaneously.
So I'm pretty busy and can't be on daily.
But it would be super cool if I could just hit you up randomly if I see you online.

I like playing competitive games but I'm also the least competitive person in the world.

I could lose a million games in a row and not care.
I feel like most people get frustrated, but that's not my vibe.

I'll still shit talk for fun though.

My most played games are:
Skyrim (1000hrs+), Apex Legends (1000hrs+), Fallout New Vegas (1000hrs+), Minecraft (1000hrs+), Megabonk (150hrs), Wand Wars (150hrs), Gunfire Reborn (150hrs), Roboquest (50hrs), Halo Master Chief Collection/Infinite (500hrs), Deep Rock Galactic (50hrs), Vermintide 2 (50hrs), COD Zombies (200hrs), GTFO (30hrs), For The King (200hrs), Rainbow Six Siege (300hrs), Overwatch (500hrs), Chivalry 2 (100hrs), Left4Dead (200hrs), The Finals (70hrs), Rounds (80hrs), Delta Force (100hrs), Battlefield 1+5+6 (500hrs), For The King (100hrs).

We can do Steam Remote play. I collect couch coop games, there's nothing I love more than just having 2-8 fellas just going ham on one flat screen.
PvP party games go hard.

I'm obsessed with music. I'm an album front to back kinda dude.
I have $300 headphones and a DAC, if ya know ya know type shit.

Stuff you might not like about me:

I'm half African American and half Caucasian American.
I'm a liberal and I like talking about politics.

I mostly lurk in here but I really appreciate you guys sharing your stories. I consider this my support group. Knowing that I'm not alone in this affliction helps.