u/Rand0m_Thoughts_

Last year I had an English teacher with Tourette’s and I think I developed one of his. Is that possible?

I’m so tired of people not understanding, and not being able to cut off anyone who refuses to understand. It’s getting hard living with the ability to control my body only 85% of the time. It’s getting old. And I feel bad for saying that because I think my tics only fall under the mild part and they haven’t caused me to be blind or anything(I’ve heard stories of people’s tics causing their eye sight to erode) but it’s genuinely getting so hard. I keep getting stares, no one believes me even though I’ve gotten diagnosed, and they won’t stop mentioning it even when I ask not to. My body hurts, it’s tired, I have bruises all over my arms. People think I’m rude because I flip people off or curse, they think I’m purposely being disrespectful when I have a loud tic during a test, and no one respects my accommodations. Literally today I was in choir asking my teacher to be moved to the side of the stands because I have one that causes me to walk back, and she refused and at some point I had that and fell on the stupid risers to which she LITERALLY GOT MAD AT ME FOR?? I WARNED UOU?? Or in English I have one where I can’t read out loud because my old teacher(who I’m very grateful for because he had Tourette’s) noticed it was hard for me to speak sometimes and so I have an accommodation where I only read if I want to AND MY TEACHERS DON’T LISTEN TO IT. And I also have one where I don’t do presentations in front of a class or at all because it usually raises my anxiety so high that I either pass out or have a tic attack and my teacher said “well I think you should face your fears” and guess what? I HAD A FUCKING TIC ATTACK AND SHE ACTED SO SURPRISED LIKE LISTEN TO ME!!! I GET IT, IM A TEEN, BUT THIS IS A CHRONIC FUCKING ILLNESS BRO!!! Km just so tired of no one listening to me, and I’m tired of getting told I’m a faker, and I’m tired of being exhausted by the end of the day, and I’m tired of begging every day to just wake up and be normal again. I wish I could go to the future and ask if I’ll get better. I’m tired of being different.

I get people try to help when they mention media that has Tourette’s, and it was nice at first, but now hearing it once a week for a two years just gets old. Yes, I’ve heard of the girl that starred on doctor phill, and I heard of the movie, and I did watch that South Park episode, and I know of Tics and Roses, please stop telling me. I feel very grateful about it, don’t get me wrong, but hearing it for so long just gets old.

I recently moved schools and explained to my very religious choir teacher that I can’t just stop moving and obviously she asked why so I explained that I have Tourette’s and at the end of class we pray(I live in the Bible Belt and go to a school FULL of Christian’s) and after people asked for us to pray for her we started praying and she said “and for -my name- and for her virus to be cured.” It was one of the few times I’ve been genuinely ashamed of having them. Since developing them I’ve had some tough times, sure, but not once have I been put on the spot like that.