u/RealB1ggieCheese

How can I invoke pilemon for knowledge?

I want to summon a demon to me or something idk just something to make the past few years not existed or just end it off here something I've tried a hand full of methods Nothing seems to work ever

Looking for books like fallout, metro 2033, stalker, Dark souls, bloodborne, god of war, last of us, Postal, Cyberpunk

Idk if these are similar lmk

Wool trilogy -- Hugh Howly

Kings of the Wyld -- Nicholas Eames

The Road -- Cormac McCarthy

Roadside Picnic -- Arkady Strugatsky

WE -- Yevgeny Zamyatin

Postalman -- David Bain

Empire of a Vampire -- Jay Kristoff

The Blade itself -- Joe Abercrombie

The Guilded Abyess -- Rebecca Thorne

I'm tried of feeling shit I rather have absolute zero than have anything I fucking hate laughing I fucking hate feeling like there is a chance I don't care about the potential damage nor do I want to go to therapy just want a straight answer. I don't want to laugh or have this tick in my voice when I joke