u/ReallyImJustaGoblin

Mostly just looking for words of wisdom, or encouragement here.

I'm only 11 weeks along, I went to a fertility clinic to become pregnant (PMOS/PCOS without ovulation), I have asthma and pre-diabetic before pregnancy, I just turned 33, height is 5'8" weight is currently 320lbs, was 300lbs beforehand.

I have basically been in bed rest for the last few weeks, with some movement during the day but I can only move so much before I am astonishingly bloated, exhausted, cramping in upper stomach, legs/pelvis feels sore, my feet hurt or swell, or I'm just nauseous or winded.

I am terrified that 1.) Its only going to get worse from here on out until after birth, and 2.) I am high-risk for GD and in general for pregnancy because of my BMI and pre-diabetes, and I am worried about how this may effect my life but also my baby's during pregnancy.

I have my first OB apt post fertility clinic in about 1.5 weeks, but until then I am just nervous. I am questioning if this will even be possible for me to have this baby without completely putting my health on the line.

I'm also in a weird mood lately because NONE of my clothes fit, I had to buy maternity leggings already, but even then I got the largest size I could find near me (XXL) and they are tight. Pre-pregnancy I usually wore an XL.

Also, my mother works in a NICU department and has completely distilled the fear in me of the liklihood about my baby going there, just since I am high-risk.

Did you experience anything similar? Was your health a concern? What helped you to keep going without beating yourself up mentally?

Not my proudest moment, but I registered for three classes this semester and already had to drop one (3 credits) due to personal reasons.

Currently I am struggling greatly with one of my other ones (4 credits), and doing ok with my remaining class (3 credits).

My financial aid loan has been sent out, but I have not recieved it in my bank yet. I have never received Federal student loans before, this is my first time. All of the requirements are overwhelming and confusing me, tbh.

The classes I took this semester seemed ok at first, but my finals are in about 2 weeks. I am super behind (personal reasons keep preventing me), they're online, I am confused, and I am panicking. The likelihood of me passing the 4 credit class is low, and honestly I want to drop it to protect my overall GPA. (I'm also switching majors now so its irrelevant).

What should I expect if I do drop the 4 credit class and go below the part-time credit hours threshold?

Do I pay the loan back immediately? Do I have a 6 month grace period to get my credit hours back up?

I should also mention I am registered full-time (12 credits) for the fall semester already.