u/ReasonableCampaign55

Anybody ever use a keyboard amp for thier digital guitar rig requiring frfr speakers? Been looking at Roland KC models but was wondering if anyone has done this live?

I’m 32.
I’ve been depressed multiple times in my life but it always seemed like it was something I could fix…
These days I feel it sinking in.
I’ve been working my buns off at a company for 3 years just to be given a raise that doesn’t afford me the ability to get by.
I took pride in the fact that I could feed myself off of 40$ for a week but now it just seems unfair. I know this is a similar struggle for people and I’m not special.
I’m just getting by and because of that I really don’t social like I used to and I find it hard to plan to social with people without $$$.
I just keep thinking about ending it.
I figure I’d leave my family (parents and siblings) so they won’t get legally stuck with my debt and just flipping the off switch.
The strangest thing to me is I’m not filled with existential dread, the thought is comforting like a warm blanket to pull over myself and finally relax.

I’m just having a real hard making a game plan against getting out of this.
I’ve worked a lot of jobs and it always comes off as because I don’t have a degree, I’m not worth paying over 25 bucks an hour.

Been looking at moving since my lease is up soon and it definitely exasperated these feelings just looking at the market.

Idk what kind of answers I’m looking for, just need to vent.
I can’t tell the people I love because they would just treat me differently. People tend to pity rather than sympathize.