u/RedXoVixen_xx

How do you deal with this? Is there anyway to get rid of it?

It's completely changed my face and triggers my body dysmorphia about being fat even further.

The puffiness makes me look like I have a double chin.

I started having thoughts of wishing I was never born from as young as six.

Though, the first time I was actually depressed and attempted S was when I was 8/9. I childishly tried to drown myself in the bathtub.

I started cutting and carving things into my skin when I was 10.

In hindsight, it makes me very sad to think I wasn't even a double digit age yet and was already in that much pain. It makes me really hope that my son and daughter never feel that despair. I know they aren't and hopefully won't go through the horrible things I was going through from such a young age that led me to feel that way already. Though, it makes me sick to my stomach that it could even be a possibility.

So I'm curious, when did it start for everyone else?