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I had a work meeting this morning like a 5 min walk from my house. Went well enough and I felt fine, little tweaky but whatever. On my way out I suddenly started to feel too dizzy to cross the street- was hanging onto various railings.

Decided to sit down on a bench for a sec and try to calm down cuz I spiral into panic attacks easily. Of course it’s 90 degrees out so that’s not helping. I move to a bench in the shade after trying to rally to walk home… like literally just up a hill. But high traffic area and I was worried about passing out and hurting myself on concrete as one does.

I gave up and called an uber. When he arrives I stand up and immediately feel dizzy and shaky and like my legs don’t work right. This angel of a woman stranger escorts me to the car and opens the door.

I told the driver I was sick so he took the longer route that put me directly at my door and helped me out.

My building super sees me leaning on the railing and walking like Frankenstein and helps me into the elevator… he’s new and I imagine he already thinks I’m crazy (not wrong).

Try to eat a pear and vomit on the carpet before making it to the bathroom.

Supposed to turn in a work project by end of day and I’m just in a ball with a heating pad ranting here instead. I’m very grateful that despite drinking am-pm I haven’t blown up my life (yet)

2 heavy pour drinks later I’m feeling better. It’s scary that not drinking enough might have made me sick. Oh to be a weekend warrior puking from overconsumption.

Anyway sorry for the rant, was just very freaked out about not being able to walk 0.5 miles and needed to vent- was nice to know if I’m in a bad way people will help

Well this is a new one- for the past couple days I’ve had a high pitched ringing in my ears, especially in the morning. I thought it might be from my cheap led lights but doesn’t seem to be it. It’s not super loud but enough to be annoying. I am also super sound sensitive so it might just be “room tone”…?

I don’t notice it when I’m outside and distracted so it might just be me being a nut nut also. im not near any kind of large industrial things (unless they’re hidden lol) so it seems strange.

Anyway if this is my descent into paranoid psychosis I will make sure to draw up a manifesto and my thoughts on aliens.

Happy Saturday

I used to be tapped into the underground scene but haven’t been for a while now. Does anyone have recommendations for female rappers with a dark vibe? I know Amber London already but haven’t been paying attention to any up and coming.

After having some weird health problems back in December I basically took to bed for a month. Ever since then I have been spending a lot less time outside. I used to like sitting in the park and walking all over different neighborhoods. I liked tanning in the sun.

I quit my gym cuz it was too far away all of a sudden to me. I haven’t been outside today, really just been napping on and off procrastinating work. I need to get up and get groceries but I’m just lying in bed with a heating pad and stomach bubbles.

I work remote so I’m really not forced to go anywhere aside from getting food and drink. I think maybe I need more caffeine in my life. I quit coffee as to not further antagonize my stomach.

Anyway, suppose I’ll finish my tequila Diet Coke and start my day at 6:30pm lol. I guess at least I can’t get in too much trouble if I’m just staying inside- aside from you know, ravaging my organs. Maybe when the weathers nicer I will emerge from my cave like a hungry bear.

I feel kinda pathetic because I live in a beautiful neighborhood and am an able bodied young(ish) person- just have been choosing to lay in bed with the blinds drawn all day