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TW: Grief/ death

27 (F). I feel slightly embarrassed posting this. I am a girl in her late 20s, i have a good job, a loving partner, and live in a beautiful place with friends around me. But I have been so so utterly depressed for years and i have no idea what to do.

I have been through serious trauma in my life. From the age of around 10, I have experienced a lot of death, at this age, I held my dead baby cousin in my arms, and as a late teen watched my first love get a rare cancer and die. I was next to him when he died. My relationship with my mother, who also now has cancer, is extremely turbulent; we have gone periods without speaking before. I have had extremely bad and toxic relationships filled with cheating, low-level emotional abuse and manipulation. And some other things I won't go into... sorry for the 'trauma dump'

The thing is, I have got through these moments, and I have healed myself in what seems like the 'right' ways. I have gone to therapy, been on medication, and a few years ago used nature as my therapy. I learned a lot about the world from mycelium networks, and the way nature works in seasons and cycles. It comforted me in my grief.

But my depression never seems to fully leave or be healed. I am at a point now where I feel like I have hit a wall. I can't seem to connect to nature in the same way. Every time I feel like i learn more about myself i seem to lose myself again. I feel like I can't converse properly with people who are not my closest friends. I can't enjoy my job, in fact i hate it even though it is good money. And i feel like i get so triggered by anything at the moment. Sometimes i will be walking down the street and see a car and all the dead people i have ever seen just become so visual in my mind. I have never even had anything to do with a car crash/

I don't really know what the point of me posting this is but I struggle so much opening up irl. But i guess i am looking for any help or advice at all. Even if i do it depressed, i just want to have a full and great life... Sometimes i will listen to music or fantasise about being a book character so i can pass the time in someone else's shell.

TW: Grief/ death

27 (F). I feel slightly embarrassed posting this. I am a girl in her late 20s, i have a good job, a loving partner, and live in a beautiful place with friends around me. But I have been so so utterly depressed for years and i have no idea what to do.

I have been through serious trauma in my life. From the age of around 10, I have experienced a lot of death, at this age, I held my dead baby cousin in my arms, and as a late teen watched my first love get a rare cancer and die. I was next to him when he died. My relationship with my mother, who also now has cancer, is extremely turbulent; we have gone periods without speaking before. I have had extremely bad and toxic relationships filled with cheating, low-level emotional abuse and manipulation. And some other things I won't go into... sorry for the 'trauma dump'

The thing is, I have got through these moments, and I have healed myself in what seems like the 'right' ways. I have gone to therapy, been on medication, and a few years ago used nature as my therapy. I learned a lot about the world from mycelium networks, and the way nature works in seasons and cycles. It comforted me in my grief.

But my depression never seems to fully leave or be healed. I am at a point now where I feel like I have hit a wall. I can't seem to connect to nature in the same way. Every time I feel like i learn more about myself i seem to lose myself again. I feel like I can't converse properly with people who are not my closest friends. I can't enjoy my job, in fact i hate it even though it is good money. And i feel like i get so triggered by anything at the moment. Sometimes i will be walking down the street and see a car and all the dead people i have ever seen just become so visual in my mind. I have never even had anything to do with a car crash/

I don't really know what the point of me posting this is but I struggle so much opening up irl. But i guess i am looking for any help or advice at all. Even if i do it depressed, i just want to have a full and great life... Sometimes i will listen to music or fantasise about being a book character so i can pass the time in someone else's shell.

TW: Grief/ death

27 (F). I feel slightly embarrassed posting this. I am a girl in her late 20s, i have a good job, a loving partner, and live in a beautiful place with friends around me. But I have been so so utterly depressed for years and i have no idea what to do.

I have been through serious trauma in my life. From the age of around 10, I have experienced a lot of death, at this age, I held my dead baby cousin in my arms, and as a late teen watched my first love get a rare cancer and die. I was next to him when he died. My relationship with my mother, who also now has cancer, is extremely turbulent; we have gone periods without speaking before. I have had extremely bad and toxic relationships filled with cheating, low-level emotional abuse and manipulation. And some other things I won't go into... sorry for the 'trauma dump'

The thing is, I have got through these moments, and I have healed myself in what seems like the 'right' ways. I have gone to therapy, been on medication, and a few years ago used nature as my therapy. I learned a lot about the world from mycelium networks, and the way nature works in seasons and cycles. It comforted me in my grief.

But my depression never seems to fully leave or be healed. I am at a point now where I feel like I have hit a wall. I can't seem to connect to nature in the same way. Every time I feel like i learn more about myself i seem to lose myself again. I feel like I can't converse properly with people who are not my closest friends. I can't enjoy my job, in fact i hate it even though it is good money. And i feel like i get so triggered by anything at the moment. Sometimes i will be walking down the street and see a car and all the dead people i have ever seen just become so visual in my mind. I have never even had anything to do with a car crash/

I don't really know what the point of me posting this is but I struggle so much opening up irl. But i guess i am looking for any help or advice at all. Even if i do it depressed, i just want to have a full and great life... Sometimes i will listen to music or fantasise about being a book character so i can pass the time in someone else's shell.

Hi guys, I feel like the question I'm about to ask for advice on is fairly stupid, but please go easy on me :)

I am 27F and used to be very into digital minimalism; however, as my career has progressed, I have become a social media manager for quite a large fragrance company. Don't get me wrong i really like the creative side of the job (the editing, scheduling etc) and I feel like, as social media is my literal job, i am happy viewing it that way and separating it from my regular life.

However, over the last couple of months, the lines between using social media for work and doomscrolling have blurred, and I catch myself being dragged into the social media hole of celebrity gossip and constant comparison to influencers or people online. I try to snap out of it, but it is quite hard.

Does anyone have any advice on how i can separate my job (social media) and still practice digital minimalism outside of 9-5? Or am i trying to do the impossible?

For context, I don't have a work phone. And the tech I have is a work laptop and my own phone. Should I get a work phone and downgrade my regular phone from an iPhone?