u/Repulsive-Jump-7594

This seems like a stupid question obviously, but i noted that in this era dressing well is usually seen badly i dont know why, im starting this "journey" with a pair of black chinos, and a pair of large brown pleated trousers, but i want more and i dont know where to buy or what to buy, i see a lot of cool outfits online, but dont really know where to start, how YOU started this journey?

So basically i noticed that since i shifted my focus to my family business and not to succeding to trading, it became "easier" i mean, i used to force not watching charts, now i even forget to , sometimes i just dont trade for some days without even feeling bad, i still dont make any money, but i have to say my analisys are way better, i see more trades in profit, that i still close in loss or at breakeven due to some errors, but mainly of greed or something like this, i dont overtrade in fact i lose 0.5% a trade, my first prop ever it's in drawdown, but it's alive and i bought it in june, is this the right path? seems like trading lost it's importance on me, but i still want to have success in this.

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So basically im being more consistent, the thing is, even if i execute my plan flawlessly i still have some losses, for example, in the last 3 days i got 3 breakevens and then price went straight to tp , today my tp got missed for 5 pips and then went straight to be just to go tp tp with literally 2 candles, my prop has been at breakeven for three weeks , i force some trades and i gor stopped out, i take a couple of good trades and go back to profit, then i get breakevens, and cant really go into consistent profit, i have this week since june, didnt blow it up, but not made any profit either

i start this post by saying that im not profitable yet, the thing is, im starting to see some results, closing my first weeks in a light drawdown or at breakeven, sometimes in profit, but that is still rare, by the way, im taking 1 trade a day, i get out of charts after that trade even if it is a stoploss, i journal and i dont risk more than 1% per trade (risking 0.5% at the moment) stopped backtesting as i used to backtest to prove i can trade, and that lead to poor backtesting, i even stopped watching floating profits because that made me emotional and i started using alerts, the thing is, this is pretty boring, sometimes i just watch charts just to not get any setup, sometimes i get a stop, i close everything and i feel like a void as i dont usually do anything related to trading anymore, will this pay off? as i said i dont see any profits, at least i didnt blow up my prop in 3 days, im in -2.5% but it's been 2 weeks since i bought it

So basically i noticed that when i backtest to prove i can trade, after maybe a stoploss that made me doubt, i really cant trade, i go really bad,it also happened last week while refining my entry trigger, i went into tunnel vision and i was seeing only the trigger and i was forgetting the context, that made me doubt about everything, and obviously the backtesting sessions went bad, why is that?

So i've been in trading for a while, i obviously had the same pattern everyone has, like overtrading/risking etc, i eradicated most of them, i trade 1 time a day, i risk 1% a trade, but i have some patterns i know i have thanks to journaling but im also stuck towards solving them so basically im stuck i really dont know what to do, some of them are toxic backtesting(in a bad emotional state) or not accepting losses or feeling like i cant trade after a loss, also i have a tunnel vision problem, where i change something(for example i've been working on better stoplosses as my old ones were choosen just to force a 1:2rr) i focus only on the trigger or on the stop and i cant really trade for a while, how can i fix this loop?

So basically like i think everyone else i've been brainwashed with things like if you dont take a tp everyday you are trash, in fact, also in backtest, every loss make me doubt aboit everything, even if i know i can actually trade, so my question is, how real trading feels like? how much time a prop firm requires to be passed? on social media uou see people passing them in little or no time, but is that really what trading is like?

What's the thing that made you improve a lot in your journey? actually im in a part of the journey where technical isn't the problem anymore, but it's hard to follow it, what i actually do it's just journaling basically, what worked for you? i've been tradibg for almost 3 years now, and in this stage i actually feel like im stuck, i feel like it won't take long , but at the same time not making any progress, i trade well for a week, then i become impatient,a and my analisys start to go bad, it's a vicious cycle

So i've been backtesting for a while now, and every week of backtest have the same pattern, 1 or 2 tps more than losses with a rr of 1:2 how should i consider that?

so i've been backtesting for a while, and the results is always the same, week after week of backtest, i get 1 or 2 wins more than losses everyweek, with a winrate that goes from 57 to 61% and a rr of 1:2? are these good numbers?

I really need help with psychology, i dont over risk/ over trade in fact my drawdown is slow but constant, my problems are when it comes to take the trade on mt5, when risk actually comes, i rush trades, i can't accept losses , it's not an edge problem, i record myself while doing analisys that mostly play out, and when it comes to place trades on tradingview(in real time) they go well, but on mt5 with real risk i struggle a lot, i usually force trades that are technically good, in facr i usually get stopped out and then it goes to tp, this is really frustrating as i know i have the capacity, but there's a really big gap for me between mt5 and tradingview