u/ResidentPride8775

Do not use this post in a video or on any platform outside of this subreddit. I doubt people would make a video on something like this but there’s some assholes out there. If this post gets found by my mum or brother, it will ruin my life

For a quick understanding of my situation, recently my mum accused me of trying to poison the family purposely and said “I know your not thick enough to do that without thinking” just because I washed my hands in our kitchen sink that was full of meat, and an open bag of lardons I didn’t know was there because it was under all of it.

And when telling me off for asking my brother to leave after I hid in my room to avoid the embarrassment after I fell down the stairs (i admit, I should’ve explained to him more why I wanted him to go and just told him I was okay as that’s why he followed me upstairs, but the way I cry is the gasping so hard involuntarily that it’s hard to get a word out), I was just looking at her and not talking. she then said “you better fix your expression or you’ll get stabbed when you go to college, and I won’t be able to do anything about it. and I wouldn’t even if I could cause I’ve warned you enough times”. the “warning” being berating me that is.

I’ve been told for a long time (mostly by bots, which I’m not proud of) that I need to call Childline and get help, especially now that I’m stuck with no connection to outside of my house other than my online classes, but by the time the summer holidays come around, I’ll be completely on my own for 6 weeks. mum is starting to take away my electronics for stuff like refusing to help her with the garden after she insulted me to my face, or the most recent time where I refused to strip my bed because I didn’t have any replacement sheets for that night if I did (luckily a delivery showed up unexpectedly later so I had sheets for that night), but because I refused to, mum took my stuff for 3 days.

the thing is, I’m just getting scared that she might hit her breaking point one day and I’ll be the target. I know she loves me, but it’s probably her generational trauma stuff that is making her also hate/resent me. I have a big ”I hate that I love you” relationship with her now and I keep my distance as much as I can. she sees grey-rocking as ”being in a bad mood”, and as I said with the college thing, she’ll turn even a blank stare into ammunition.

i’m considering asking my current tutor if I can continue my lessons throughout the summer holiday to “keep my momentum going”, but I’m not sure if she can/will do it. I have a hand injury so I use my iPad to write during my lessons, therefore I get it back during my punishments. if I stop having the tutoring, then I won’t have any business near it for multiple days, which is fucking torture

Sorry if I rambled, I’m really stressed right now and exhausted. but yeah, what’s your story? Do you think it’s safe for me to call them or will they send someone and make things 10x worse?

Edit: Forgot to mention, I’m 16 and in the UK so we start college at this age

my mum is neurotypical & in early 40s. I’m 16 & have always struggled to take pills, especially ones that are big like painkillers or taste horrible. I gag when trying to take them, even with food a lot of the time.

I got sick recently & had a 2 day headache from the coughing. I asked my mum to buy Calpol SixPlus, i remember taking it as a kid & it being fine. I’m too tired to get into the whole conversation but she basically had a go at me saying I’d just have to suck it up & get used to it if the pain is that bad because she’s not buying it regularly.

I probably took painkillers twice, MAYBE three times last year, so it’s not as if I’m gonna stub my toe and finish the whole bottle within a week. We are from a poorer family so I do understand that we can’t always get extras, but at the same time I’m seeing she’s making a big deal out of this yet not when she gets to reorder her £100+ Chanel perfumes

This is absolutely not the first time she’s done stuff like this, & it’s usually much worse but I won’t get into that right now