u/ResolveAggravating16

I don’t mean to scare people because I’m my case this was my second time coming off of benzos (first time I failed and 10 months later went back on) and I came off of lamictal and abilify only a month before beginning my taper and stopped stimulants and had a very very traumatic thing happen to me during peak tapering my benzo the second time. - I still do notttt feel like I am in reality and it is so scary. I feel so far off from reality and I am trying to live life and pursue my career, I can’t feel my emotions, I am in complete autopilot - I just hung out with an old friend and it was so good but I was just completely out of it and now I barely remember the hang out and I just got home and I can feel my tinitus playing up. As I left his house I felt a lot of energy I think happiness from actually socialising. this is so awful. ever since coming off the benzo the first time beginning of 2023 I have been in a non reality I think it’s dp/dr state. please tell me this gets better I have so much to get on with but my poor nervous system is struggling. Ill also add this year I did EMDR to address some really traumatic things and it helped to calm down the high anxiety, but I am putting a pause on processing for now until things get less like this dp/dr feelings I’m feeling now. I find these symptoms get worse whenever I push myself and do a lot in a day. Yestedsy I did a dance class and today socialise and it’s just yeah, I have a lot of mental confusion, I think I have to just keep pushing myself to get into a better position and in order to heal. Does anyone have any advice ? Has anyone been in a similar situation and done a bit of emdr at about 8 months off? I am willing to go back on meds or whatever to help this - when does this go away ? it’s so so scary. My tinnitus has just come back tonight after seeing a friend. I ended up on way too many meds and had to come off of them I just honestly didn’t think it would have been this hard and a long journey.

i jumped off of the benzo july 2025 so it’s been 12 months and it’s been successful this time I would never touch one again. But I would honestly do anything to get better now or just bring down the being not in reality feeling just a little - I just feel like it’s taking so long and it’s hard to make big desicions or function in the career I want too in this state. I’d appreciate any tips or advice. I am currently able to work part time, but only because I think I’m so disconnected and can’t feel - I socialise sporadically because it takes it out of me. & I switched to another anti depressant about a month ago.

ahhh please help I want to feel normal, start dating again, feeling emotions anything

thanks

does anyone else have issues with time? I can’t measure in my mind how long a year is/was - or feel the passing of time. The past 8 years feels like a blur. I can’t tell if 2 years is a long time or not or if 6 months is a long time or not. its probably one of my most scary symptoms - I have done a little EMDR maybe it made it worse I don’t think so. I am nearly a year off of benzos but came off of other meds before that and had many changes. It stresses me out that I don’t know how much time has passed.

when did you guys get your self back and things you used to enjoy doing? Like music for example or if you did art, art? I am 1 year off, but struggling to get anything back it feels

Hi all,

I just have a question about how long it generally takes people to feel better & their trauma and other symptoms start resolving?

I have been in therapy since Late February, she is trauma informed and we started EMDR end of March. I have a history of trauma and also iatrogenic trauma from a male therapist,long term boundary violation. My dissociation has lowered a tiny weeney bit. & apparently my executive functioning has increased ro a more normal score which is awesome. We have done a total of about 10 reprocessing sessions but my trauma symptoms are still super high, and things are getting worse On my scores for my mental health symptoms - which she said is most likely normal. I am still very bad. I also finished my benzo taper last July so still healing from that too.

Should I continue on with this therapist or find another one? This is probably all normal. Just wanting to be sure.

still a struggle with DP/DR, how’s socialising and connecting?

swirling memories of past places only the same 5 memories.The memories that are linked to my past session. This chain is still going on from the session a month ago is this normal?

hi all,

I just had therapy today but we just talked instead. I didn’t mention my symptoms with this because there was just so much to talk about.

In my head there are just places as an image or memory and they are all connected - I am still dissociating- it goes from this house memory to that place memory- to that place similar to our last session a month ago which is the last time I did emdr.

it’d like those places and things are still revolving or that chain or link is still open - I’ll mention this to her when I see her next? I’m really not okay and a lot of my trauma has come from my Past therapist crossing so many boundaries.

hi all,

I am 11 months since finishing my taper and jumping off- before then I came off a few other psych meds - I also have a history of trauma - I was wondering what this is though?

I am focusing so much (not intentionally) on flaws. I find humans gross, and I think feet are gross, hyper focused on flaws on my face and feel like we have to do so much to keep up hygiene and wierd thoughts like this? I don’t think I have ever really had this before? it could be a part of DP/DR as I have that the most at the moment?

I came off of high dose 6mg clonazepam start of 2023 and then by the end of 2023 I went back on diazepam 12.5mg and by middle of 2025 I have been successfully off of the diazepam. Alongside of all of that I came off of antidepressants, gabapentin, abilify, Lamictal, dexies ad Vyvanse, stupid poly pharmacy cocktail for anxiety only probably too much... I’m considering going back on one thing so I can at least socialise or function slightly better. I have a part time job, I socialise every now and then but tbh I don’t have any close relationships any more due to coming off meds for 4 years and a little bit before than isolating due to probably benzos and other things.

Any success stories on fully recovering without anything out and feeling like you are confident in yourself & wanting to go and socialise? all I do at the moment is work, work out, living at my parents at least, talk to people here and there on Facebook, see friends maybe twice a month maybe 3 times if I’m feeling good. I’m 29 feel like I’ve missed out on my best years to these things. I want to feel at least like confident enough in myself and have the brain capacity to socialise rather than just barely functioning - I dissociate so mugh that’s how I get through working, I had a big trauma happen during withdrawal.

anyway just looking for success stories/ even people who went back on something else.