Do u ever feel so lonely that u wish u weren't AroAce ?
Most of time im content with being alone, it's not like I am completely alone, I do have friends but it feels like everyone is just more focused on building romantic relationships which i can never relate to.
I feel different, like a person you could never relate to cause I've never met aroace people irl and no one even that understands how it feels being one, they just think it's simply not possible to be, or they make it seem like I just can't pull so it's just an excuse for that, which i believed for the longest time, because when I think about it even if i wasn't aroace I still couldn't have pulled, I am socially awkward, chopped and not very good with conversations.
These thoughts go on like a cycle and make me feel grateful that im aroace, but when I listen to sweet romantic love songs and hear about stories of soulmates and can think of nobody I drown into that cycle of loneliness again.
Reading again, this feels like a very childish rant, but ykw who cares i really needed to vent T-T.