u/RevolutionaryYam1350

Hello i am looking to get my HT license. I am a senior in biochemistry. So i assume i have taken enough things to be allowed to take the HT. But i do not want to have to go in peraon. The online one i have seen so far is UND. Just wondering if there are any in FL that are fully online so i can pay less in tuition. Any other short fully online programs would be appreciated. Thank you in advance.

Why the fuck do men talk to you/respond to you. But when you ask them if they want to go on a date i get ghosted. But they watch allll my stories....... they follow me. Like my posts. Like what in the fuck i am SO sexually frustrated (female). I didnt ask them to take me out on a date I INVITED THEM TO A FREE THING! Like a green market or this yoga festival that was free to attend. You said you had interest in me , but ignore me when i ask you to come watch me make myself into a pretzel....... women that i like dont talk to me. Men that i like dont talk to me. But they always tell me i am so beautiful, WELL WHY WONT YOU MEET EVER. Like what the actual fuck like do i only swipe right on people trying to gain A following?!?!? I am just so sexually frustrated and i dont know what to do. I wish i could just stab the shit out of myself and make it go away. I havent even had a hug from someone i was attracted to in almost 3 fucking years. I just feel like everyone my whole life has lied to me about the way i look (because i say i am a 1 in looks but not one person has ever agreed, but i also hear alot of my friends who are atleast 5s say the same about themselves). I dont feel beautiful or hot or anything anyone has ever told me. I am just tired of that thing screaming downstairs when i am just TRYING TO MAKE IT THROUGH LIFE AS IT IS !!! Its literally causeing my to disassociate into sexaul fantasies AND IT IS NOT HEALTHY. you need to stay grounded and in the present moment. But nope i yell at myself about 10 times in a single hour to get out of this disassociation. I have so much going on from life to medical that i dont need this extra bullshit but now its so much worse

Every single fucking day i find something to cry about. I am just so sick of feeling like this. I am sick of what people say not matching what actually happens. I am sick of feeling worthless. I am sick of feeling pathetic. I am just sick of existing in this reality

I just fucking hate everything. It makes me cry everyday, i no longer feel good from the things i use to enjoy. I literally do so many things just because i use to do them and they use to make me happy. But nothing does. Everyone calls be so smart and so beautiful. Calling me fat or ugly isnt even a mans first insult when i reject them. But everyone i like doesnt like me, and everyone who likes me I JUST DONT FIND PHYSICALLY ATTRACTIVE. I know its all about money! I am always dumped and replaced by someone making more than I. I want to vomit all the time. But if i am soooooo smart why tf cant i figure this money thing out. If i am sooo beautiful why am i sexually deprived?!? Why the fuck dont i deserve to be with someone i actually want? To be happy? Everything and everyone around me is so fucking depressing. Saying they wish they were me..... I CANT EVEN GET A FUCKING JOB BRO!!!! I LITERALLY HAVE 5 YEAR EXPIRENCE IN PHARMACY AND THEY TELL ME THEY PICKED SOMEONE WITH MORE QUALIFICATIONS. DO YOU WANT TO PAY ME 20$ FOR A MASTERS?!?!?! and every business idea sank. I am a loser who lives with her mom. Everyone acts like i am so amazing and desirable but nobody actually wants me. I am such a pathetic fucking loser. I wish i could change it but i just dont fucking know how !

Ive been single for so long and shit on by partners. Ive ALWAYS been left for someone with money. I like someone, they like me, but pick the one with money regardless if they are a good person or not. I am just so fucking triggered that my whole life i was taught to be a good person and good things will happen, just for me to be the broke loser with sexual frustration. Always taught that a womens character is more important than money. But nope. It was all a lie. Ill probably never have sex again and be alone for the rest of my life because the only value you have is how much money you make. I am just filled with so much anguish over this. I am ugly and poor and i dont know how to change it. "Work harder" is all i get when i look for guidance BUT BITCH I DID WORK HARD AND NON OF MY BUSINESS EFFORTS HAVE PAID OFF. I EVEN GET OFFERED MINIMUM FUCKING WAGE FOR A JOB I HAVE 5+ YEARS EXPIRENCE IN. WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKING LOSER. I THOUGHT EVERYTHING I WAS DOING WAS TO AVOID THIS. I wish i could just die and give my life to someone who actually wants it. Everyones lives would be so much better if i didnt exist. I am so fucking pathetic and nothing ive done has changed it and idk wtf to do anymore

My mom will walk the fuck away when i am speaking but when she is speaking ahe will chase me not matter how far i run

I have so many problems in life. But whenever a non problem comes in i become such a POS. He said he wanted to see me, but let me know i am taller than he is (3 inch difference) and all i wanted to say is "how big is it". I talk so much shit about this world but i guess i am no better

Wow i hate everything more than i did before. My entire life EVERYTHING my mom didnt like she says its too much or "just like me father". And i am so fucking tired of hearing that shit. Its not my fault you are being an ass because i didnt give a fuck about your story. Mad im not laughing at her stupid getting blood drawn story so it means im being a bitch. Like good fucking dam it. I want to die every fucking day of my life and she has never given a fuck once and i am just so over this fucking reality. My cusion killed himself about 2 weeks ago and i wish i could ask him if he wants to switch

It keeps happening in my dreams. Something happens and i face going to jail and cant figure out what to do. I usually wake up before i see any police. I dont think ive even faced the person i wronged in my dreams expect in the one where i killed someone. Another i stole 1 mil from a gift bag in a elementary school(ik, why tf would a school have that in cash as a teacher gift🤣). I feel like ive never had control over my life and cry everyday about it. Googleing is suggesting this would be the reason. I am more so afraid that my dreams are telling me i am going to go to jail and i just want to be a good noodle and have a happy life. I am so stressed and upset about life i really dont need the impending doom of it getting even worse( i have medical issues so my life in jail would suck way worse than just being in jail). I guess i am here trying to ask people who know more about dreams.

I cannot fucking believe ANOTHER thing. ANOTHER RHING THAT SHOWS ME HOW NOTHING IN MY LIFE GOES RIGHT. I finally get the chance to try to build my shopify account and I CANNOT GAIN ACCESS TO ZENDROP HA! i paid all that fucking money these past 2 years to make 100$ in fucking sales. And now all of a sudden i dont have access. Every single fucking thing in my life is so fucked up. I would be on the streets if it wasnt for my mother. I fucking hate myself so fucking much. I am so worthless, useless and pathetic. Every fucking thing i do just crashes and burns AND BURNS MY FUCKING MONEY. I CANT BUILD A BUSINESS I CANT FIND A NON MINIMUM WAGE JOB AND I HAVE A FUCKING DEGREE. My cusion just killed himself and all i can think about is how that should have been me. And i wish i could switch places and let him have the chance he didnt get. Everyone would be so much better off if i was dead. I am nothing but a fucking burden. Everyone says everything is my fault. But i am goddamn 27. I have done EVERYTHING everyone in my life has told me to do. WHO THE FUCK ELSE AM I GOING TO ASK!?!? THE TREES!??! ooo but saying that means i am blaming everyone for my problems. I asked all the right questions to all the wrong people so that means i blame everyone on everyone when i have not once come at them for giving me wrong advice. I HAVE NOT POURED THAT FUCKING WATER ON THEM. but yet i am the problem. Do everything everyone said, but yet i am still the problem. I really wish to die, but even more so, i wish i didn't have to feel this way.

Did i get triggered? Yup. Just tired of being talked down to by everyone. How ill never be able to get a real job because i left school. This dude told me you cant get a job in science and mathematics unless you have a degree and i am like... my classmates did. And i work in the pharmacy already. And he just goes "well lmk how that works out for you" and carries on talking like he isnt a dick. YOU ARENT EVEN FROM USA! YOU ARE FROM BUTT FUCKED CUBA and try to tell me whats impossible!??! I have 2 science classes left but like 16 other classes that my advisor pulled up on me for no reason. And that shit bag had me take 5 fucking classes that i didnt need! CALCULUS 2 IS FUCKING HARD MAN ! YOU ONLY GET 3O SECONDS FOR EACH QUESTION THAT FILLS AN ENTIRE PAGE. I was literally bulking my forarms at the gym to be able to write fast enough. Which takes me to my BIGGEST point! After coming on reddit i started asking "how are you going tell me i need a bachelor's but offer 15$ for a non entry level job....." whelp seems like most people told me if you want to make more than 50k youll have to get a masters....." everyone my whole life says i am so fucking smart but i say this doesnt make any sense all of a sudden i am dumb and dont know what i am talking about. NO I AM DONE I HATE SCHOOL I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I JUST WANTED TO GET A JOB AND LIVE MY LIFE. I DO NOT HAVE A PASSION. On top of it all i am also on my period. Thanks for coming to my no grammer ted talk. I could honestly keep going but probably will make me cry harder.

Because of my mom i am not homeless. But because of that i should eat all her shit. Imagine everytime you told someone who SAYS WORD FOR WORD "i love you more than anything in this world" that you wanted to die/kill yourself/the world would be so much eaiser for you without me. And she pulls some "i have another child i dont have time for your shit. You are an adult." Mind you the first time i was 10.... yea some adult i was. And even now.... shes the biggest hater of everything that brings me any joy in this world. Goddamn do i just want to die. But i cant find the point in dying, but i cant figure out how to live either. All i have is this present moment...... but i dont even know what to do with that anymore if everything i love is so wrong