Update 3: dirty emg, ~3 months of twitching, no weakness
Original posts:
https://www.reddit.com/r/BFS/s/DWIjDzGB22 https://www.reddit.com/r/BFS/s/PlKa6lSarf
After the mri/blood results came back clean and the neurologist in Thailand recommended I see an MND specialist I flew back to the UK and went to see specialist at one of the leading MND clinics in the country.
He told me I clinically do not have MND as I have absolutely no weakness or physical signs of MND. He booked me in for a follow up in 6 months and said he expects me to be exactly the same and does not expect to see any weakness then. He said he believes the abnormal EMG results were incidental and not related to MND. However he didn't really have a real explanation for them. He was entirely unconcerned by the twitching/fasciculations.
It has helped reassure me, however it doesn't really feel resolved and I still have this underlying anxiety that it's just early stage MND. I can't help but link all these things from the past few months/year or two together.
My latest spiral is that I've quite clearly been suffering from mild depression/apathy, lack of interest in being social, brain fog and difficulty with articulating myself for a few months. Which again is apparently something that can be caused by early stage ALS. I had initially blamed this on being unhappy with moving to a new city combined with lingering long covid brain fog.
Rationally I can see how the anxiety about this illness can spiral, but it feels impossible to not construct these scenarios that explain everything in the context of having the disease.
I don't know if it's worth getting a 2nd opinion in the UK? I'm booked in for an initial call with a therapist on the NHS next week as well as it's clear that I am spiraling mentally as well.