u/RichardDTame

So a quite traumatic thing happened to me recently after being in cfs recovery for 3 months. I had been making okay progress from somatic tracking, allowing body scans etc. But when this traumatic thing happened it really has thrown my nervous system off.

I thought to process these deep overwhelming emotions of grief and betrayal i should try journalling how i felt about the person who had wronged me. But for the last two evenings i have done this my nervous system is fully activated afterwards in a way i havent felt for months, and doesnt return to baseline (like it does for most other things now). This has made me struggle to sleep at night from the continued activation.

Should i avoid journalling until my ns is more settled again? Why could writing out these intense feelings cause this?

Started recovery in early may. My nervous system began healing very quickly, and i gained some physical capacity to be able to do chores and walk to the shops more frequently. After a few weeks of high heat weather, trying to make music again, and attending a therapy session i have got the worst flareup/ setback since i was in a terrible crash beginning of the year.

Unlike previous ones though, mh nervous system feels fine, but instead the high body fatigue and soreness have returned from nowhere. I feel like each morning I'm waking up after running a marathon the day before.

Im responding well to symptoms and continuing allowing method, but no clue why im going through such a rough one after having much smaller, less intense flareups through the first 3 months of recovery. It's been tough though, and I often want to just give up.

I got me/cfs in September 2023 after a period of high stress and attending a music festival. Since May when i found this sub i researched, and began doing the allowing method of body scans, where i do somatic tracking throughout my body, just noticing and allowing any symptoms present. Usually 4-6 times a day. I saw pogress in my cfs and chronic pain straight away with my physical baseline and nervous system sensitisation decreasing, but it seems my cognitive and emotional abilities have not caught up or improved much in the last 2 months of doing this. Ive been attending fortnightly therapy sessions with a cfs and mind body informed therapist as well.

Ive also read the way out, most of unlearn your pain, and watched much recovery content to the point i found it unhelpful to keep consuming it.

Im just wondering if anyone else has gone through anything similar, where their symptoms have not changed much for a prolonged period of time, while not in any adjustment period/ flareup. Or if theres anything else i should add into my daily routine.

Just tried to upload a polo shirt, but its been stuck on check in progress the past two hours. Never had this happen before, atleast not for this long. I'm worried i could be banned if its taking this long to decide. Has this happened to anyone else?

Edit: It finally authorised, but now my latest listings are getting no views or likes, which is very unusual.

Started brain retraining for my moderate cfs, and sensitised nervous system around beginning of may. It was going great the first few days, but by about day 4 or 5 i seemed to go into a flare up of new symptoms id not had before. These includes nausea, mood swings and depression.

Im trying my best not to be bothered by the symptoms, not giving them any fear, but ive also never heard of these ones specifically from mind body work. Is this a normal experience to last more than a week? And does anyone know whst my next steps should be, perhaps scaling back a bit?

Started brain retraining and other mind body work a week or two ago. Yesterday was hit by a wave of symptoms i hadnt experienced in months. Some id rarely had from cfs before, like mood swings and depression also.

This feels different from a crash, and likely just temporary while my body adjusts to me trying to the slightly more id been doing (reading, jigsaw puzzles and playing my synthesiser for short periods), but the symptoms are almost worse than crash ones. And going back to doing less for a time to come out of this flareup is definitely not going to be fun or easy at all.

Is this a normal process that others here in recovery have gone through? I'm tempted to order a copy of alan gordon's the way out, to slowly read through while being less active.