u/Rinnyba

I was diagnosed yesterday and I have been in and out of crying since then. For the last 6 months we were treating my high blood sugar as type 2 and I was eating better to get my A1C down and was like great its lower I'm working out I'll be back to normal in no time. After this visit, I realized that's not the case. I am going to live like this for the rest of my life and I was trying so hard not to get prescribed insulin because I have a huge fear of needles. I can't fathom injecting myself 4 times a day. I keep seeing theres a risk for other autoimmune illnesses too and I'm scared I have more and the rest of my body will fail soon. I'm so scared of everything I know a lot of people see it as nothing but I feel like my life is shortened and my quality of life will just deteriorate from here. I was already depressed before this and now I feel this has made me suicidal as I don't know if a life of pain and suffering is worth staying alive for. It's hard to keep composure at work, I feel like breaking down everytime I think about it.

Update: Writing this at night same day. Reading everyones comments have made me feel so much better about having type 1 and reassured. Thank you everyone for sharing your words of wisdom and comfort it really came at a time where I needed it. I will come back to reread everyones messages whenever I am feeling down again.

As the title says, my bf is in basic and I wanna send him a letter with funny military jokes. Give me your best ones please could be written or even images. I just want something that will make him laugh.

As the title says, I am wondering how smooth/faster would it be if I am currently working in LAUSD as a TA. I just finished my BA and am looking to be a substitute teacher but I heard it takes very long for the sub permit and that LAUSD takes long looking at applications.What steps do I need to take to ensure it doesn't take long? How do I go about applying as a currently employee?

I would love to hear peoples experiences about going up the education ladder as I'm still going to college for my masters.

I spend my whole paycheck helping my family whenever they need it and ive finally realized that they dont give a fuck whether i am okay and whether i need help. They say they cant work and its been like two years with the excuse of a car accident but I knoe thats an excuse. They need help with gas and food and theres ongoing issues between my parents arguing all the time but they expect me to fix it all. I don't even have enough to pay for things I want or need because whenever we go out they want me to get them stuff. Im out of money, im exhausted, and i dont know what to do. My health is declining and i keep ignoring it. I just want to die at this point I cant get away theres no one i can ask for help and im just so unhappy at this point i think it'll be better once im dead.