u/RottenSamuel

I can barely move I feel nothing I have starved myself for multiple days due to my lack of motivation I can't do this anymore I don't even have motivation to kill myself anymore I can only look and my noose and bottles and thinking about just moving my arm to grab them feels so draining I'm pathetic I don't do anything I don't know what to do anymore as my life just gets worse people are making ai porn of me and I just can't anymore everyone hates me I hate me my only motivation to move in the slightest is this one item I love that I unfortunately can never even see in person as a autistic in deep interest with the media it's my only hope to see it and touch it but even then while I'm rotting I'm only getting further from reaching my only source of something thats not tiredness and anger

I just seem to be getting worse and relapsing almost every two days and it is just awful it just feels like life won't get better and I Dont want to be here anymore im Miserable, broke and sleep all day doing nothing I don't contribute anything