Idk how to survive the newborn and 2.5 year old
My 4 week old is a velcro baby. My toddler is 2.5. My husband just left for 5 days to attend to family matters out of state and I am here feeling glued to my couch.
I've broken every screen time rule to keep my toddler at bay, and my 4 week old wont let me put him down, he wants to constantly nurse or be held.
"Just get out in the sun, you will feel better." "Get the boys outside they will be fine" Yesterday I tried to take them both for a walk alone and even that felt like chaos. A simple walk with my toddler not listening well, trying to stop in the middle of the road, stepping over shattered glass on the walking path (thanks local assholes) and a dog charging at him behind a fence and scaring the crap out of him. All while baby fussed and cried (luckily he did stop after a while).
My village is very small with nearby family all very busy and preoccupied with work and other things...I feel like such a failure, im so tired, I feel so alone. Idk how my neighbor who has 2 toddlers and a newborn is outside in her fenced in back yard letting the boys run loose.
Why cant I be more like her? Why do I feel scared to leave the house without help and force my very bored toddler to stay stuck inside? Im so sad for him. Poor newborn cries and fusses over the smallest things and always needs my nipple in his mouth :(
Going from 1 to 2 is WAY harder for me, than 0 to 1.