u/RoyalConscious5

Hello,

Ive been experiencing some derealization for the past 4 years after taking some mushrooms back in college (Terrible idea). The first time it happened i thought i died. Couldn't eat or sleep or grasp the concept of being a person anymore. I felt emotional numbness and anxiety like something was wrong.

Every since then i will go through periods of being ok and being able to ignore it but sometimes i can just feel the fear and anxiety when I'm stressed or tired.

Recently since Saturday ive been having a bad episode of this surrounding the thought loop of how can humans not care about all the unanswered questions of the universe and our very existence. How can people just go on spending time worrying about trivial things that do not matter that much and worry about how weird it is to just all be here and just not caring about the why or how. At this moment i feel nothing matters that much. I cant seem to not think about it and cant focus on the basic human way of thinking right now and also enjoying those trivial things im supposed to be. Ive been trying to compromise with my brain "why not think about both" but i feel super guilty when i try to go back to thinking and enjoying things i normally do. I just feel so out of place like my brain is broken and im going to be stuck like this forever since this is the worst it has been in a while. I cant escape this loop.

Hello,

Ive been experiencing some derealization for the past 4 years after taking some mushrooms back in college (Terrible idea). On top of that i have generalized anxiety and OCD as well. The first time it happened i thought i died. Couldn't eat or sleep or grasp the concept of being a person anymore. I felt emotional numbness and anxiety like something was wrong.

Every since then i will go through periods of being ok and being able to ignore it but sometimes i can just feel the fear and anxiety when I'm stressed or tired.

Recently since Saturday ive been having a bad episode of this surrounding the thought loop of how can humans not care about all the unanswered questions of the universe and our very existence. How can people just go on spending time worrying about trivial things that do not matter that much and worry about how weird it is to just all be here and just not caring about the why or how. At this moment i feel nothing matters that much. I cant seem to not think about it and cant focus on the basic human way of thinking right now and also enjoying those trivial things im supposed to be. Ive been trying to compromise with my brain "why not think about both" but i feel super guilty when i try to go back to thinking and enjoying things i normally do. I just feel so out of place like my brain is broken and im going to be stuck like this forever since this is the worst it has been in a while. I cant escape this loop.

Hello,

Ive been experiencing some derealization for the past 4 years after taking some mushrooms back in college (Terrible idea). The first time it happened i thought i died. Couldn't eat or sleep or grasp the concept of being a person anymore. I felt emotional numbness and anxiety like something was wrong.

Every since then i will go through periods of being ok and being able to ignore it but sometimes i can just feel the fear and anxiety when I'm stressed or tired.

Recently since Saturday ive been having a bad episode of this surrounding the thought loop of how can humans not care about all the unanswered questions of the universe and our very existence. How can people just go on spending time worrying about trivial things that do not matter that much and worry about how weird it is to just all be here and just not caring about the why or how. At this moment i feel nothing matters that much. I cant seem to not think about it and cant focus on the basic human way of thinking right now and also enjoying those trivial things im supposed to be. Ive been trying to compromise with my brain "why not think about both" but i feel super guilty when i try to go back to thinking and enjoying things i normally do. I just feel so out of place like my brain is broken and im going to be stuck like this forever since this is the worst it has been in a while. I cant escape this loop.

Hi,

So I’ve recently taken the leap to go back to school to get my BS in forensic science focusing on death investigations. I already have a BA but I decided I’ll need some science background too. I do know I want to work in that related field of forensics and was thinking of aiming to be a forensic pathologist. I do volunteer work at my county’s OME and heard mixed things from everyone on what I should pursue after I graduate such as “be an embalmer”, “don’t work as an mdi they do the dirty work”, or “go the full mile and be a doctor.”

I know medical school will be a lot and not sure how I’ll feel about more school on top of more school. I realize everyone’s path is different and I am up for a challange seeing this will be my second bachelors in getting. I don’t care about the money either I just really want to be able to help people on one of their worst days and give them answers. This stuff is also just such an interest of mine.

I was hoping to ask what are some pros and cons between each of the three related positions of Death investigator, Forensic Pathologist, and Medical Examiner. What do you love/hate about what you do? Do you wish you would’ve pursued a further education? Things like that. -thanks for any feedback I get!

*Cross post*

Hey yall not sure if this is ok to post here but but I’m currently very interested in mortuary, forensic pathology, or death investigations. Im currently doing some volunteer work at my county’s medical examiners office outside my regular 9-5 as well and I highly enjoy it so far. I’ve learned decedents smell a lot like garlic and sugar.

Ive been doing a lot of reading and research and was seeing if there’s any books, podcasts, or anything on the web yall would recommend I could read or listen to related to those fields? I’m starting to run out of things to further my knowledge. I frequent the r/examinedeath r/medicalgore and this page a lot too when I’m really bored and wanna learn something new since I can’t afford going to school for it now.

Some things I’ve already read/listened to and really enjoyed!

Stiff by Mary Roach
Working Stiff by Judy Melinek
What The Dead Know by Barbara Butcher
Coroner Talk Podcast by Darren Dake
Unnatural Causes by Richard Shepard
Beyond The Body Farm by Jon Jefferson
Dead Men Do Tell Tales by William Maples
Mile Higher Podcast Kendall Rae

*Cross Post*

Hey yall not sure if this is ok to post here but I’m currently very interested in mortuary, forensic pathology, or death investigations. Im currently doing some volunteer work at my county’s medical examiners office outside my regular 9-5 as well and I highly enjoy it so far. I’ve learned decedents especially decomps smell a lot like garlic and sugar.

Ive been doing a lot of reading and research and was seeing if there’s any books, podcasts, or anything on the web yall would recommend I could read or listen to related to those fields? Or ways I can get into the field with more hands on experience without school? I’m starting to run out of things to further my knowledge. I frequent the r/examinedeath r/medicalgore and this page a lot too when I’m really bored and wanna learn something new since I can’t afford going to school for it now.

Some things I’ve already read/listened to and really enjoyed!

Stiff by Mary Roach
Working Stiff by Judy Melinek
What The Dead Know by Barbara Butcher
Coroner Talk Podcast by Darren Dake
Unnatural Causes by Richard Shepard
Beyond The Body Farm by Jon Jefferson
Dead Men Do Tell Tales by William Maples
Mile Higher Podcast Kendall Rae

*Crosspost*

Hey yall not sure if this is ok to post here but I’m currently very interested in mortuary, forensic pathology, or death investigations. Im currently doing some volunteer work at my county’s medical examiners office outside my regular 9-5 as well and I highly enjoy it so far. I’ve learned dead people smell a lot like garlic and sugar.

Ive been doing a lot of reading and research and was seeing if there’s any books, podcasts, or anything on the web yall would recommend I could read or listen to related to those fields? I’m starting to run out of things to further my knowledge. I frequent the r/examinedeath r/medicalgore and this page a lot too when I’m really bored and wanna learn something new since I can’t afford going to school for it now.

Some things I’ve already read/listened to and really enjoyed!

Stiff by Mary Roach
Working Stiff by Judy Melinek
What The Dead Know by Barbara Butcher
Coroner Talk Podcast by Darren Dake
Unnatural Causes by Richard Shepard
Beyond The Body Farm by Jon Jefferson
Dead Men Do Tell Tales by William Maples
Mile Higher Podcast Kendall Rae

Hey yall not sure if this is a morbid enough question but I’m currently very interested in mortuary, forensic pathology, or death investigations. Im currently doing some volunteer work at my county’s medical examiners office outside my regular 9-5 as well and I highly enjoy it so far. I’ve learned dead people smell a lot like garlic and sugar.

Ive been doing a lot of reading and research and was seeing if there’s any books, podcasts, or anything on the web yall would recommend I could read or listen to related to those fields? I’m starting to run out of things to further my knowledge. I frequent the r/examinedeath r/medicalgore and this page a lot too when I’m really bored and wanna learn something new since I can’t afford going to school for it now.

Some things I’ve already read/listened to and really enjoyed!

Stiff by Mary Roach
Working Stiff by Judy Melinek
What The Dead Know by Barbara Butcher
Coroner Talk Podcast by Darren Dake
Unnatural Causes by Richard Shepard
Beyond The Body Farm by Jon Jefferson
Dead Men Do Tell Tales by William Maples
Mile Higher Podcast Kendall Rae