Hello Hello fellow Narcs, I have a friend of mine who is very good at reading people apparently. She is the first person (that I listened to at least) to call me out for playing the victim. I felt scarily vulnerable and surprised. Have you guys ever been through something similar? How’d it feel to be called out for your “bullshit?”
Hey guys, I was recently diagnosed with double depression (PDD & MDD). I have other issues, but this seems to be my most daily struggle. The overall grayness of life then episodes of even worse depression with rumination and bad ideology makes life horrible. The only way I can deal with episodes I’ve found out is doing drugs or just telling myself it will pass. It seems like it tends to get worse with time (I believe I only had PDD till I started Zoloft, so it might be medication-caused) but has anyone else experienced this “Double Depression” and how do you live with it?
Hey guys, I was recently diagnosed with double depression (PDD & MDD). I have other issues, but this seems to be my most daily struggle. The overall grayness of life then episodes of even worse depression with rumination and bad ideology makes life horrible. The only way I can deal with episodes I’ve found out is doing drugs or just telling myself it will pass. It seems like it tends to get worse with time (I believe I only had PDD till I started Zoloft, so it might be medication-caused) but has anyone else experienced this “Double Depression” and how do you live with it?
Hey guys, I was recently diagnosed with double depression (PDD & MDD). I have other issues, but this seems to be my most daily struggle. The overall grayness of life then episodes of even worse depression with rumination and bad ideology makes life horrible. The only thing I can do during an episode is either do some kind of drugs (I’ve been sober for a weekish so you can imagine how fun life is) or tell myself that it will eventually pass. It seems like it tends to get worse with time (I believe I only had PDD till I started Zoloft, so it might be medication-caused) but has anyone else experienced this “Double Depression” and how do you live with it?
Hello fellow Narcs, (not sure if that’s derogatory or not) I currently have a dilemma that I am trying to sort out. I have a friend I am getting closer to. She is a very nice good, very sympathetic. She helped me on my first night of quitting cigs and THC. I have feelings for her, I guess. My therapist and friend (a mutual friend) have told me that they don’t believe it’s a good idea. They say that I’m healing from another toxic relationship, (true, she prolly had BPD) but that was in January. Also, I’ve been working on myself, but I am what I am so I don’t expect progress. I know what I am, and I have emotionally manipulated people (specifically women) unconsciously. The mutual friend noticed and calls me out on the playing the victim a lot. I don’t think (though I’m not 100% sure) I want to hurt my crush, but I know with the Narc tendencies I will move on from my scorched earth with little empathy given enough time.
TL;DR: I don’t know if I should pursue a relationship with a very nice girl. My friend and mutual friend don’t believe I’m ready yet. I don’t know if I should pursue, but I’m pretty sure if I hurt her I won’t care in the long term