u/Sad-Ad6602

i feel bad for the bri ish

i loveeee mayo so much. imagine a hot dog with ketchup and mayo. mayochup is soo good, i could dip fries and nuggies in that

I have been going to college since 2018. Every single time I sit down to do homework, I HATE MY LIFE. Everyday seems like it's a never ending game and I am so tired of it. I have taken breaks from college. I have done tutoring. I have worked multiple jobs. I have tried 2 different colleges. I have made it on the dean's list, I have switched majors. I have gone to therapy. I am on anxiety meds. And I am in thousands of dollars in student loans. I am now at a point where I have made it easier by just going fully online, and I still hate my life. This is a never ending circle to a thing that I probably need: just to say I did it.

I am so far in deep that it is no use quitting. But I am so fucking tired of the constant deadlines and rushes of anxiety, with LITTLE reward. I am so done, I would rather do anything than school work. I have so much energy that I put into my actual job. Every single night, I would rather fucking sleep. At a job while on the clock- there is clear reward and accountability.

I have a headache right now because I am now at a point where I NEED caffeine and weed to do school work. My friends have now gotten married and moved on to their life-long careers- I am still not done with this dumbass bachelors. I am working a job where it would greatly benefit me if I finish a degree but it is not necessarily needed; especially if I just push through and work for promotions. But I do not want regrets and I want to be able to say I fucking finished. But I am FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love wearing pj sets. graphic tees with comfy sweats are great. when its cold out, i love something with a hood always

for going out, i put on my “i’m hot shit” outfits

Sometimes my sober self feels like a character/actor, and my stoner self feels like the real deal—the authentic version of me.

i like 7pm more than 8 pm (still early - still have time to do stuff after dinner)

but i like 9 pm more than 8pm because being high is awesome after dinner but before bed.

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however

i like 10 pm more than 1am tho because if i could still nap and be awake to have a snack AND go back to sleep with some brain rot reels before bed??- i feel comort at 1am.jolly me with a snack and cold water

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i should be in bed before 9 tho to relax

if i stay awake, i must fall asleep before 11.

if im awake at midnight, im asleep before 1am because its getting late.

sleeping at 1 is ok bc getting home at 10-12- i can chill for a bit since i still got more hours to sleep before the sun comes up.

but
i’m burntout by 1:30 if i’m still awake. but

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waking up at 1am is good. i can snack and go on my phone till im back asleep.

waking up at 4am with an alarm set for 6 tho SUCKS BALLS. but waking up at 5 is - shit thats worse.

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falling asleep at 2 and forgetting to set 6am alarm- only means youre getting up late and your life is over if you’re up past 8. 9am still asleep? you can make it, fashionably stressfully late, bc better late than never. 10 am still asleep? you’re fired bro don’t even come in ever again

because why tf not

wondering what it is like