u/Sad_Recommendation74

23 (AFAB)

Dx: Bipolar I, OCD, ADHD, PTSD, ASD

Medications: lamictal, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, latuda, remeron, Prilosec, Claritin testosterone injection weekly, and emgality auto injection pen

Was recently hospitalized due to a mental breakdown resulting in medication changes.

I am trans ftm. I have been on HRT since 2021 and have had Top Surgery in 2022. I am / was starting the process of getting set up for hysterectomy. Yesterday I got a call from the gynecology office explaining that I need to get full clearance from a behavioral health clinic in order to proceed. I live in Indiana a state notorious for being anti trans.

What is the chance of this completely ruining my ability to get the surgery? I’m just anxious I didn’t think about this. 🥺

Spoiler/NSFW due to medical talk and mental health stuff

I am/was in the process of starting hysterectomy route. I’ve been on T since 2021 and had top surgery in 2022. I was recently hospitalized for a few weeks in a psych ward after a breakdown and medication changes.

I was called by the gynecology office and I have to go to a behavioral health clinic and get full clearance by them. I live in Indiana a state notorious for being anti-trans. Did I just ruin my chances of getting a hysterectomy or am I freaking myself out? This is not me asking medical advice.

About a month ago I (23M) started feeling off, like mild allergies at first. Nothing serious just kind of run down. But over the next couple weeks it kept getting worse and turned into constant stomach issues. I was dealing with nausea and diarrhea pretty much nonstop and got to the point where I couldn’t really handle solid food, so I was mostly on liquids.

After a little over a week of it suddenly getting worse and not improving, I went to urgent care thinking it was just a stomach bug. Instead, they told me I had a sinus infection on top of an upper respiratory infection, which was likely messing with my stomach too.

At one point, after taking more of the medication than I should have, I started feeling really off. I got super jittery, my heart was racing, my pupils were huge, and I just knew something wasn’t right. I ended up calling poison control after freaking myself out looking things up, and they told me I was likely overdosing and to go to the ER if it got worse.

Not long after, I started getting short of breath, like I couldn’t fully catch my breath, so I went to the ER. As soon as I told them what was going on, they rushed me back immediately even though there were like 5 people in the waiting room

From there it was a blur. They hooked me up to monitors, did an EKG, started IV fluids, and had a whole team checking on me because my heart rate was really high even at rest. They gave me medication to bring it down and something to calm me because I was really agitated.

I was really agitated the whole time, super jittery and couldn’t calm down. My heart rate was over 145 even while resting, so they gave me medication to bring it down. They also gave me Ativan to try to calm me, but it didn’t really help much.

Because I was still so worked up, they ended up giving me a pretty big dose of midazolam, which finally knocked the agitation down. I’m honestly ashamed to admit how good it felt. It was like everything just went quiet for a second. I even lied to get another dose, which I really regret.

At the same time, I’m glad I was at least self aware enough to recognize what was happening, because when they later offered to prescribe benzos, I was able to say no knowing that’s something I could easily get hooked on.

Where do I go from here? All of this made me realize im using weed to do the same thing. Numb me. also how tf am i supposed to process the fact i almost died

TW: OVERDOSE, ADDICTION, MEDICAL I don’t know if that is the right tag but putting it just incase for the TW. Sorry if this is long I don’t have anyone to talk to.

I (23 M) went to the urgent care 5 days ago. Where I was diagnosed with both a sinus infection and upper respiratory infection. I was prescribed a prescription cough medicine and antibiotics.

Because of my stupidity I took more than prescribed because it felt good. I have an extremely addictive personality. I for some reason didn’t think about dosing. Anyway yesterday I felt off after one of the doses kicked in. My heart was racing, my jaw was clenching, very jittery, pupils dilated. I did some googling (normally don’t recommend dr. Google) and figured out that I was overdosing.

I called poison control and they said to monitor and go to ER if it gets worse. I started feeling out of breath so I went to the ER. There were 3 other people in the waiting room. When I told reception what happened they told me to sit down and almost immediately got called and rushed to a room.

I had like 5 or 6 people hooking me up to stuff, starting an iv, taking vitals. Like 5 minutes of being there I had (it felt like) the entire cardiac team showed up and did ekg and a few other things. Then I had to have a one on one and had to pee with someone watching me. I got two round of fluids 😭 because I was so agitated and restless they started by giving me Ativan which did nothing but make me nauseas. So then I got midazolam. I feel so ashamed to say. But that felt amazing. It was ever so slightly wearing off so I pretty much lied to get another dose.

Because they could see it calmed me down so they tried to prescribe benzos even after I told them I have an addictive personality. It felt like they were pushing it. Saying how it works so well for me.

I’m honestly kind of proud of myself for saying no. Because that would have been a disaster waiting to happen. Essentially I think they are pushing addictive meds to keep people hooked.

Thanks for coming to my “Ted talk” 🫡