u/SammieBear_626

I ask here because I don’t know where to ask, but I found something very close in my tree. There’s no way I’m adopted nor any of my siblings, I look a lot like my dad, but when I searched my dad it gave me the names I’ve always known for my dad as 3 different names, his birth name, 2 nicknames I know but listed these names as aliases, and then it gave me a name at the top that idk or ever heard… On my dads side I grew up knowing he’s Mexican and that my family on his side came from Jalisco, which is why we are pale, many people in that area of Mexico are pale skinned… but it gave me a name at top with a Eastern European last name. I’m confused, could there be a mistake?

The last child they adopted, their only child that isn’t Caucasian (out of 16 in total) was adopted at the age of 11, shes Native American (they refer to her as Indian) and Mexican (mentioned once very briefly), looking back at their earliest videos her adoption being finalized wasn’t very long before the family decided to start a YouTube channel, I don’t watch them consistently but I have seen a video and all the girls were getting spray tans or self tanner done, I don’t remember who but someone says something along the lines of “she’s already tan” and sometimes they will say things that feel odd to me. They don’t do it often or maybe it is being cut out of the videos now. This specific child also has many controversies surrounding her adoption story and the mom sharing too much information that shouldn’t be online at all or public knowledge, one of this child’s 1st “adoption story” videos has her crying silently during it because like I mentioned before her adoption was still fresh and new at the time.

My console heats up cause I play the sims but is there a good fan I can use for it? Or is there even any fans or anything to prevent it from heating up so bad?

I need help with coming to terms with it… how did all of you manage or come to terms with it? My anger towards it is cause I’m very confused often, sometimes I just feel masc for a long period I start to think I’m fully transgender, then when I’m girly for a long period I think it was a phase and that I’m a cis girl, I’m 23 years old and only discover this mid to late last year, I really don’t if I am even genderfluid at all or if it’s all in my head, I can’t make sense of anything rn…