u/Scared-Tea-7713

I had botox more than 2 months ago under general anesthesia, now I can say with confidence that it doesn’t work for me. It might have made it worse. Before I can start dilate with no.2 dilator, now no.2 hurt 😢

My physiotherapist said she doesn’t know how to help me anymore as we have tried a lot in past three years working together, I should have had more progress with botox, a supportive partner and active dilation at home. I feel pain even she just put her finger at my entrance. She is aware of my trauma background as I was sexually assaulted as a child. My psychotherapy stopped earlier this year because my therapist got sick and I haven’t found a new one.

I am starting to lose hope, I am 26 and have been seeking treatment for 4 years. piv really seems mission impossible for me. I could really use some support and encouragement!

My best friend is gonna have a baby soon and I (26f) can’t even put the third dilator in. I am happy for her and grateful that she is sharing her pregnancy journey with me. It’s not like I want kids in the near future, but even the third dilator looks impossible (I am stuck at the third dilator for 2 years now) and having sex look like never.

I have tried trauma therapy for a year (I was sexually assaulted as a child) until my therapist got very sick and had to cancel, and I haven’t found a new one yet.

I have tried physiotherapy, but there is not much my physiotherapist can do since she cannot insert her finger inside to examine me. I can put my own finger in without pain but feel so much pain when others try to do it due to trauma, she cannot even put the tip of her finger in.

I got botox under general anesthesia more than one month ago, it didn’t help me.

I feel like I have tried everything (also numbing cream, yin yoga, do dilation right after shower, using vibrator when dilating) but nothing helps and I am stuck on the third dilator (out of five in the set). I feel so exhausted and so behind in life.