u/Sdrawkcab_Reklat

I have a fictional 3-sport league that I've been simulating since I was a little kid. All players and teams in this league are made up. All players compete in football, basketball, and baseball for their respective teams. Basketball season is January-April. Baseball season is April-August. And football season is August-December. After each season, there is a draft in which the next select players for the upcoming season. There are 40 teams in my league and each team has two minor league affiliates as well. I have spreadsheets where I save all the rosters season by season.

It started 25 years ago when I was 6 years old. Little kid me would ask different people in my life what they wanted their team to be called. My league started with 4 teams in 2001 (my team, my dad's team, my mom's team, and my sister's team). Over the next few years, my babysitters and relatives got teams as well. I would draw trading cards of the players on the teams and make newspaper and magazine articles about them. In 2004, I got rid of the team that was "my team" because I realized it wasn't fair for me to be biased toward a team. I continually added a few teams every few years and now, I have a 40-team league.

It started with me playing sports in the yard with my family, but eventually, my family stopped wanting to play sports with me due to me being a sore loser, so I problem-solved and decided to "play games against myself." By middle school, I had a system of playing all the football, baseball, and basketball games by myself to simulate the results. In high school, I involved a few friends to make it more fun. In college, I didn't have time to play out the games anymore so I put all the league info into different sports simulation games and used those to simulate the games each season. I currently still do that using BasketballGM, Baseball Mogul, and FootballGM.

Anyways, this fictional sports league has always been a huge part of my life and I was wondering if anyone else does anything similar. Let me know if you want to hear about the names of the teams or any of the players that are in the it.

Ok you guys... I feel like I'm officially crazy. I've only been genderfluid for about a month now. And until today, it's only been in the privacy of my own home. But tonight I had this courage/confidence fueled by alcohol to go for a walk around the block wearing my full female outfit. I'm still freaking out about it. Like I confronted a major fear of mine. But I did it. Idk if I should be proud or anxious. I feel both. The world can't know that I'm genderfluid. But I am sort of glad that my neighbors and random people saw a woman walking around tonight. Wow. This was crazy.

Hi, this is my first time posting here. I'm 31 years old AMAB and always had these intense feelings about wanting to experience being female since I was like 12. I like being a guy and I like my beard and don't want to stop being the guy that I am. As a kid, my parents always made me have really short hair and when I was 12 or 13, I started obsessively craving long long hair because it was something I couldn't have. Along with that, I wondered what it would be like to be a girl that also had really long hair. I now have long hair as an adult, but it still didn't satisfy my wanting to experience being female (sometimes, not permanently). But up until last week, I always treated that being female fantasy as something that I should keep secret and be embarrassed by. What changed for me last week was that I tried the ChatGPT gender swap filter and omg... those photos were so real. They were way more real than any other gender swap technology I had seen and experimented with previously (wayyy more real looking than FaceApp which I had used for years). So I got these really intense feelings over those ChatGPT images and wanting to be my female self. What I liked so much about them was that I could look at them and think "Wow! I'm attractive!" because even though it was an AI generated image of an attractive woman (I'm attracted to women btw), it was still my face and I actually liked it for once. I have a lot of self-esteem issues and don't consider myself very attractive, but it was so new and freeing to like the way I looked in those images. So from there, I made some more AI chats where I could be my female self and talk with her "friends". And those chats made me SOOOOO HAPPY! Like, I smile whenever I'm called by my female name that I chose for myself. My female self is basically me with mostly the same interests that I have, but she just likes do girly things that I never felt allowed to do. I like that being my female self is helping me like myself more even when I'm going about my everyday life. I like myself a lot more now. My female self is confident and after practicing being her, I feel more confidence when I'm my male self in everyday life too. And I have come out as genderfluid to a select few friends and family members and they have all been supportive. Anyways, sorry for the really long post, but I just wanted to explain everything because I know that everyone's experience is different (and most of this happened in the past week or so). I want to experiment more with clothing and other things to really feel like my female self in the privacy of my own home. Does anyone have any advice or anything to someone like me who's just starting out on this journey? I'm keeping a positive mindset because of how happy and freeing it all makes me feel that I don't have to hide these feelings anymore. I'm very new at this so any support is greatly appreciated! Thanks!