u/SentientGreen

I’m 43 and currently 5 weeks pregnant after IVF, and instead of feeling excited, I feel like I’m constantly waiting for the next devastating piece of news.

First I worried we would never make a normal embryo. Then I worried the embryo wouldn’t implant. Then I worried my beta wouldn’t rise. It did.
Now I’m terrified of being told I have a blighted ovum or a missed miscarriage. If the ultrasound is okay, I already know I’ll worry about the heartbeat stopping. Then the NIPT. Then the anatomy scan. It feels like my brain just keeps moving the finish line.
The hardest part is that I don’t have many pregnancy symptoms. The few I do have, like slight breast soreness and fatigue, could easily be from the progesterone I’m taking. Every day I find myself wondering if my pregnancy has already stopped developing and I just don’t know it yet.
I realize this probably isn’t rational. I think infertility and IVF have conditioned me to expect bad news, so it’s hard to believe that something might actually go right.
Has anyone else felt this way? If you did, did it ever get better? Was there a point in pregnancy where you finally believed you were going to bring home a baby, or did the anxiety just shift from one milestone to the next?
I’d really love to hear from people who have been through this because right now it feels incredibly lonely.

I’m 43 and currently doing IVF. I had my egg retrieval on June 10 and have a fresh embryo transfer scheduled for June 15.
A complicating factor is that my father was recently diagnosed with active pulmonary tuberculosis. He was initially hospitalized for what doctors thought was pneumonia, but after several weeks his cultures came back positive for TB. He had many classic symptoms including a chronic cough, blood-tinged sputum, and ongoing oxygen issues.
Because of the exposure, I asked my PCP to order a QuantiFERON-TB Gold Plus test. The result just came back positive.
Here’s where things get confusing:
I have no symptoms.
No cough.
No fever.
No night sweats.
No weight loss.
I feel completely normal aside from being in the middle of IVF treatment.
I grew up in Mexico and previously had a reactive TB skin test years ago, so it’s possible this isn’t a new infection.
My IVF clinic is in Mexico and had not initially recommended any changes when I informed them of the exposure. However, they have not yet reviewed the positive QuantiFERON result.
I’m waiting to hear back from my doctors, but in the meantime I’m curious:
Has anyone had a positive QuantiFERON during IVF or pregnancy?
Did your clinic proceed with transfer?
Were you required to get a chest X-ray before transfer?
If you had latent TB, were you treated before pregnancy or after?
I know nobody can give medical advice over Reddit, but I’d love to hear experiences while I wait for my clinic to respond.
Thank you.