I HATE BEING SHY AT MY BIG AGE
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HI, SO I HATE BEING SHY AT MY BIG AGE. LIKE IM ALREADY 25 IM STILL SHY TALKING TO SOMEONE ESPESCIALLY WHEN TALKING TO GIRLS THAT I LIKED OR IM INTERESTED IN AND I DONT KNOW WHY. (._.)
so, for context i met her here. she was looking for people to talk to and i tried to hit her up, and it went well. i think 2 days passed I asked her agad if shes down to join my sidequest this month, and she said yes (which i didnt expect because she said she is busy w her ojt and work) so fast forward before the day kami mag meet, we exchange socials, then after that she messaged agad "its okay to unfollow if u find it catfishy" (non verbatim) but i dont find her that way because i find HER CUTE AND PRETTY ! ! so i said "no, ur okay" "u look pretty" and then i send her the details about sa side quest namin. she was still down for it. so tumuloy kami sa side quest namin, so dumating na yung araw for that event. I was really kinakabahan and na sstressed out becuase it was my first time nalang ulit to go out with a woman after being a homebody for 2years haha. so ayun na, nag meet muna kami before kami pumunta sa pupuntahan namin.
Naka punta ako ng mas maaga sakanya ng onti sa meeting place but nag yosi muna ako kasi kabado ako hahshsha like literal na kabado na nginginig kamay level. then when we saw each other na, my first impression sakanya is she is really PRETTY and CUTE, she also has sense of style which is I LIKE. then nung nag gegetting to know each other na kami my voice is shaking when im answering her questions
(/ー￣;) but i tried to flirt w her thru eye contact but di ako makatagal dahil sa sobrang kaba (kabadingan).. after namin kumain we went na don sa pupuntahan namin then andun na kami sa location ng event we barely like talk to each other because I was tahimik and non chalant lang, kasi nahihiya ako sakanya and shes very very outgoing. the whole day we barely got to know each other because we were busy doing our thing nun. So our day ends na pagod kami and barely know each other.
Also, if im being honest gusto ko pa siya kilalanin ulit but di ko alam if i should make kulit pa kasi di na siya nag response sa chat ko. Im so guilty tuloy ngayon for being shy and hindi ko siya ineentertain during that time. she is really fun to be with but ako super nonchalant (which is i dont like huhu).
problem/goal:
how do i overcome my shyness at this big age (ToT) ang dami ko na rin na walang fine shyts dahil sa pagiging awkward and shy ko. nyeche huhu.