



I alreay planned everything. The goodbye letter has been writen, the way how i want to end it is also planned and i have everything to do it. The only thing im doing now is finishing some movies and games on my bucketlist and having some last conversations with a few friends and family. Im still hoping for something to happen to give me a reason not to end it but i feel like that wont happen. Maybe some of you can give me some reason to not go through with it since i dont have anyone to talk about this...
Life has been shit for years now and i only want the thoughts to be gone for once, and the only way i can achive that is by drinking till my body cant function anymore. I feel like im in some kind of way trying to kill myself slowly by doing all this.
I just want someone in my life who actually loves me man...