u/Shesawitchx

So I got blank dvd-r disc's and a external disc drive that can burn dvds.

The idea i have is to use Proton VPN the free one. Then use "the pirate bay" to download movies. I also use malearebytes for protection scans.

I believe windows 11 has a media player built in if I need that. I'm gonna look up more tutorials on how to burn torrents to disc's but I think it's drag and drop from downloads. I may possibly need to convert the movie to mp4 file assuming torrent hasn't done that for me.

Anything else I'm missing?

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'24/F' dating '25/M". Dating 8 months

TW: Suicidal ideation, drug use, mental health .

So i 24/F have depression and pcos. Im fairly certain I also have pmdd. The issue is I'm experiencing depression and even Suicidal ideation while on my period.

This cycle a for like a week I felt constant anxiety, had severe insomnia, was crying all the time. Super stressed out. Really sad and angry. Having irrational fears just because anxiety and no sleep at night.

Now that my period is here I'm having body pain, cramps, nausea, food cravings, irritability, anger, sadness. And for some reason feelings of being super irrational like for example ideas of completely ghosting my best friend 24/F. Breaking up with my boyfriend 25/M. Dying my hair, spending alot of money, wanting to relapse on drugs. Wanting to die. Then being super angry that I can't die because I love my cat too much. Wanting to adopt a dog or a kitten. Just super random things.

Right now I'm in bed depressed, thinking about breaking up with my partner 25/M because we have the same reoccurring conflict. He has hygiene issues, he works on it for abit then goes back to his usual non consistent behavior. Which usually means more laundry, reminding him to use wet wipes in the bathroom ect. I feel like a parent. He gets embarrassed when I point out he has a stain or he missed a spot ( which I half feel like a dick for but also I'd want someone to tell me if I had something wrong). He also smokes weed which I hate the smell of because it triggers me to wanna smoke and I can't for mental health and addiction reasons. He also doesn't wash dishes thoroughly enough. Im at a point where I don't know what to do.

Do people just accept what they hate about their partners and settle because they love them?.

Like he makes me really happy, we are learning to communicate better, we rarely argue, he makes me laugh, we get along well. We have things in common, the sexlife is good, we cook together. He listens to me and is emotionally supportive. BUT there are things I dont like about him.

I just feel completely lost because 80% of the time I'm like super in love with him and then sometimes I think of ending it. Which is the other 20%. But im afraid to be alone because of the mental toll a breakup takes on you. Im already mentally unstable, I'm not in contact with my family, I have 1 friend and my cat.

So besides changing my medications or increasing my anti depressants or starting therapy, I'm lost. I feel absolutely insane.

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TW: Suicidal ideation

So i have depression and pcos. Im fairly certain I also have pmdd. The issue is I'm experiencing depression and even Suicidal ideation while on my period.

This cycle a for like a week I felt constant anxiety, had severe insomnia, was crying all the time. Super stressed out. Really sad and angry. Having irrational fears just because anxiety and no sleep at night.

Now that my period is here I'm having body pain, cramps, nausea, food cravings, irritability, anger, sadness. And for some reason feelings of being super irrational like for example ideas of completely ghosting my best friend. Breaking up with my boyfriend. Dying my hair, spending alot of money, wanting to relapse on drugs. Wanting to die. Then being super angry that I can't die because I love my cat too much. Wanting to adopt a dog or a kitten. Just super random things.

Right now I'm in bed depressed, thinking about breaking up with my partner because we have the same reoccurring conflict. He has hygiene issues, he works on it for abit then goes back to his usual non consistent behavior. Which usually means more laundry, reminding him to use wet wipes in the bathroom ect. I feel like a parent. He gets embarrassed when I point out he has a stain or he missed a spot ( which I half feel like a dick for but also I'd want someone to tell me if I had something wrong). He also smokes weed which I hate the smell of because it triggers me to wanna smoke and I can't for mental health and addiction reasons. He also doesn't wash dishes thoroughly enough. Im at a point where I don't know what to do. Do people just accept what they hate about their partners and settle because they love them?. Like he makes me really happy, we are learning to communicate better, we rarely argue, he makes me laugh, we get along well. We have things in common, the sexlife is good, we cook together. He listens to me and is emotionally supportive. BUT there are things I dont like about him.

I just feel completely lost because 80% of the time I'm like super in love with him and then sometimes I think of ending it. Which is the other 20%. But im afraid to be alone because of the mental toll a breakup takes on you. Im already mentally unstable, I'm not in contact with my family, I have 1 friend and my cat. So besides changing my medications or increasing my anti depressants or starting therapy, I'm lost. I feel absolutely insane.

So my partner has NVLD.

They struggle with NVLD and hygiene. They live with their parents who are not supportive or believing of their diagnosis. We're adults. I'm disabled so I need a fair bit more support than him. He's embarrassed about his hygiene and bathroom issues with not cleaning his body well enough after using the bathroom. Causing stains on clothes and bedding.

Leading to more laundry being done. At first I didn't understand what was happening. Now I'm trying to learn. The problem is we are both nurodivergent. So things like memory for tasks aren't so great. I'm trying my best to be open and communicate with him and remind him to wash himself in that area if we shower together, I've also given him Flushable wet wipes. He doesn't use them as often as he should. He says he will start showering more and I want to believe him.

I googled it and it says putting up signs for how to wipe and clean yourself in front of the toilet may be helpful. Or using alarm reminders in your phone. I want to be a equal partner and support him and learn to be more understanding because I have disabilities too that need support. I'm just having a hard time not being angry. I don't wanna feel like a parent and right now I do. He struggles with consistency.

Is there any way I can further help him or teach him? Even discreetly to work on this, so he builds better habits even while living at home. I feel like a dick and that im judging him when I don't mean to. I've just done alot of laundry lately because of accidents and I'm abit stressed.