I understand the word incarnation refers rather to the forms of existence, however I am a bit pressed for words here. After this life ceases, and you go through existence in other forms, do you eventually become a human again, or do you keep incarnating as something else basically forever
Laptop - Lenovo Legion Pro 5 16ADR10.
I've had this laptop since September, yesterday it started sizzling/crackling. At first switching from quiet to balanced made it go away but now it doesn't help. The sound doesn't seem to be coming from the fans as I hear it no matter how hard the fans blow. The sound stays there no matter if I'm playing something or just browsing the net. Continues even after I unplug the charger.
It feels as if the cause and effect have been severed.
As a kid, I had issues with X or Y and I was depressed because of it. Now I feel like I am depressed regardless of anything else. Problems come and go, some stay, but even in the wonderland in my head where there are no problems I am still depressed. I can't imagine a version of me that enjoys life, only one that has fewer problems. I can't bring myself to care about any success or defeat because they won't change anything. I feel like I just want to suffer because I don't even know anything else. I can only hope that in my next shot at life I'll be someone wholly different.