u/Silent-Honey-4658

Hello (17m) and im a gay feminine boy. I’ve been depressed my whole life and have tried to take it away because I hated everything about me. I grew up in a religious household and I was extremely bullied in school. I liked watching girl shows, movies and my favorite color was pink. My parents thought I wasn’t “normal” and they’d always try and correct the way I am. I started to not like myself and was in a very dark place. I felt like I wasn’t even a boy but trapped inside a boys body. I’d always cry and pray to God (that’s what I thought would “fix” me). When I started high school I liked this one boy and he was “straight” allegedly. We became very close but he was homophobic to me infront of other people (I guess he was ashamed when ppl were around us). I started to like him very much and he did as well. He’d even buy me secret flowers when i was very sad. Eventually we stopped talking because he couldn’t bare to be around me and get called names. The last text he sent me was “ if you were a girl, I’d 100% date you and love you, but we can’t be together im sorry”. I cried like crazy and I didn’t eat food. My parents thought I was possessed or was going through something. They tried to take me to church but I told them that it was a cult and I never want to go there ever. They cried and told me that’s the only way you can be saved ( I still refused). Fast forward now, my mother took me to the doctors because she got very worried. When I arrived, the doctor was talking to me and asking me what’s wrong. I never told anyone about me feeling trapped in a boys body so I told the doctor. He was very concerned and told me that i have gender dysphoria. I didn’t really understand and he said that I might be “trans”. Of course he told my mother and she went insane. She started crying and said why I never told her any of this stuff. I told her that in her religion it’s prohibited to be gay and she said that’s not true. We went home and she waited and told my dad everything. He cried as well and told me that if im actually thinking that im a girl. I said yes and he didn’t say anything after. I don’t know what to do, im very confused about everything. I never knew I was trans, I thought it could never happen to me. I’m really sad and confused right now and idk what i should do.

Hello (17m) and im a gay feminine boy. I’ve been depressed my whole life and have tried to take it away because I hated everything about me. I grew up in a religious household and I was extremely bullied in school. I liked watching girl shows, movies and my favorite color was pink. My parents thought I wasn’t “normal” and they’d always try and correct the way I am. I started to not like myself and was in a very dark place. I felt like I wasn’t even a boy but trapped inside a boys body. I’d always cry and pray to God (that’s what I thought would “fix” me). When I started high school I liked this one boy and he was “straight” allegedly. We became very close but he was homophobic to me infront of other people (I guess he was ashamed when ppl were around us). I started to like him very much and he did as well. He’d even buy me secret flowers when i was very sad. Eventually we stopped talking because he couldn’t bare to be around me and get called names. The last text he sent me was “ if you were a girl, I’d 100% date you and love you, but we can’t be together im sorry”. I cried like crazy and I didn’t eat food. My parents thought I was possessed or was going through something. They tried to take me to church but I told them that it was a cult and I never want to go there ever. They cried and told me that’s the only way you can be saved ( I still refused). Fast forward now, my mother took me to the doctors because she got very worried. When I arrived, the doctor was talking to me and asking me what’s wrong. I never told anyone about me feeling trapped in a boys body so I told the doctor. He was very concerned and told me that i have gender dysphoria. I didn’t really understand and he said that I might be “trans”. Of course he told my mother and she went insane. She started crying and said why I never told her any of this stuff. I told her that in her religion it’s prohibited to be gay and she said that’s not true. We went home and she waited and told my dad everything. He cried as well and told me that if im actually thinking that im a girl. I said yes and he didn’t say anything after. I don’t know what to do, im very confused about everything. I never knew I was trans, I thought it could never happen to me. I’m really sad and confused right now and idk what i should do.

Hello (19m) and I’ve always known I was gay. My childhood I had to hide my feminine side because of my religious parents and society. I never liked being a boy and wished I was a girl from the start. I could never be myself and had to play this straight character growing up. I was conventionally attractive and had feminine features. I was always bullied and called crazy slurs at school and never fit in with any of my friends ( they are all girls btw ). I’d always cry and think that God made a mistake with my gender. I know how much things I could do if I was born a girl. Everytime I tell people that they think I should transition into a girl. I know that might sound like what I’m looking for but idk how to explain. I don’t want to transition into a girl. I feel like it’s too late for me my childhood has been taken away from me as living as a boy. Also I get scared about how much it takes to become a full woman. If I wanted to be trans I wouldn’t want to just identify as a girl but I’d want to fully become one. I feel like it’s too late and I just wish I was a girl from the beginning of my life. Idk if ppl will ever understand me.