u/Silent_Purchase6434

I never tried. I never studied my whole potential, procrastination blah blah i had suic1dal tendencies since i was 13 i was supposed to be dead every year but I didn't, I didnt plan my future or give my everything. Idek anymore. Last year I got into some college, in a course that I hated to core. I dropped out and now preparing for entrance test ( which is haven't prepped and exam is tomorrow) now im gonna end up in shitty college again. I dont even have stable parents who'd pay for management seat, I live with my grandparents and I dont thibk they can support me financially anymore. Idek what im doing with my life. What if I fall in the same loop as my previous college? I dont wanna even live. I am planning to off myself mid college years. I can still off myself now but I dont wanna burden my family with my death, they already have lot of stuff going on. Call me dumb, stupid and a loser idec anymore. I dont wanna do this. Too much work. Ik everyone's gonna try to talk me out of syicide but why are people glazing, living so much? Go outside? What if i dont want to? I simply just dont have the will to live and ofc im destined to failure with this mindset. Im poor with no will to live and no passion for things or anything. Even if I live, ill still be a directionless person, just like I was until now.

Please dont hit me with "go outside " or "hold on life is beautiful" or religious things

So yeah is it js me or did yall notice that scars are really sensitive. Like sometimes I get these random jerk in my whole when the temperature changes slightly. When this happens, I feel it in my scars first. Its like highlighting lines in a textbook if I have to really explain how it feels like

I mean understandable yhat they are sensitive when compared to normal skin but does anyone relate

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17F and 2 days ago i noticed wriggling and itching in my butthole at night. And then my vagina started to itch a lot after me flushing water on it, it went away and itching and wriggling in my anus stopped too and today I noticed the wriggling at the end of my anus. I taped it for a min and looked out for any worms but I dindt find any. I washed my butthole with water and noticed a small wriggling thing in the toilet water not sure but id like to believe that I do have them. I will go to the pharmacy tomorrow and get albendazole but my question is

I touched my face and lot of stuff around me, you guys thibk I mightve infected the areas with worm larvae? My hair is very long and im scared i mightve accidentally got larvae on there. I dont want to have them in my eyes or any otjer body parts. I dont want to get them again bc of the surroundings I touched now

so yeah I noticed my asshole itching suddenly and it was very pinworm like and my vagina started to itch really bad I scratched it til it burned (now i have a pimple on my clit) and then run water on ut to calm down all the burning and itching. Now I dont feel any itching or worms wriggling in my ass past 10min. Do i really have them?

Aslo i touched my hair if I do have worms, what should I do if I got eggs in my hair. I seriously want to burn myself