u/SillyCatDoodles

Back in high school, I got incredibly upset with a nonbinary student. I feel like they don’t care about me as they interact with other people, even though that is NO EXCUSE. So I lashed out at them in Gmail and called them transphobic terms out of anger and feeling overwhelmed by racing thoughts.

After I sent the email, my body gets exhausted and I felt my chest tighten. I felt incredibly remorseful and disgusted that I sent something this rotten to someone I knew to some extent. I know that slurs are never okay, and it should NEVER have any justifications. I don’t know why I said awful slurs to them in Gmail. But I don’t use offensive words anymore, as those times were several years ago.
Even if I feel bad about my failures, it doesn’t change the fact that I said mean things to someone.

I now try to be more respectful towards the LGBTQ community and try to learn about their history. I try to be mindful and consult to a therapist. I desire to change for the better and move on and learn from my mistakes.